Jellies make the world smile :)

2011-03-15T21:18:00.000-07:00

Frustrated in a way.

My goal before college is to make frequent visits to the dentist, lol.

I need to push my self confidence up up up.

It frustrates me how some people who are blessed with perfectly straight teeth wont smile showing their teeth. Its annoying at times. Not all the time, dont get me wrong. SOME times. It frustrates me cause I wish I was blessed with perfectly straight teeth so that when I smile at cameras i wont feel so self concious.

At times I tell myself. Ahh, I look weird in that picture. No likey.

Hopefully that will change once I brave myself enough to visit the dentist.

><"

innocent ramblings. dont mind me. go on. shoo.

2010-03-21T01:09:00.000-07:00

SUPERJUNIOR ♥

They're in MALAYSIA .... NOW! :(((((((
i wished I could have gone to their concert coz i watched the video's and they were so wickedly AWESOME!! :'( ahhh! jealous wahhh. PLUS, my brother actually saw them with some fans in KL! :O

and he didnt take a picture~ T.T
i tell you, if BIGBANG ♥ comes to Malaysia and I'm not here (next year +) i'll cry buckets of tears and flood aussie!!!! HAHAHAHA. sot oh me. :D
but seriously! if BB comes kan, and Im not here kann. im not gonna shut up until months after it oh. xD please bigbang, if you want to come kan, come during december ehhhh. xD sure i'll go!
i'll take the cheapest ticket and go. bahahaha. ndak pasti pun.

but superjunior supershow2 in KL, and us not being able to go is just too sad! *sigh*

2010-02-21T03:12:00.001-08:00

Hello hello~

T.T, I can't believe the holidays are over!! awww, i was kinda not looking forward to school. haha, coz I like the free time we have during the holidays. You can relax, watch tv, and maybe do some revision at your own pace... ♥ Now, we're back to school. Back to all the homework's, tests, exams, pengawas stuffs, tuition. You name it! We're doing it. hahaha. In a way though, I can't wait to go back to school coz I miss all my friends! :( it's hard enough catching them online this week. I'd say i did alright la this week, 50% progress. I kinda slack-ed on some days. Moving on~ Today, I met up with my cousin, to talk about "pharmacy" thingies~ Coz, Im most probably, InsyaAllah going to Perth,WA next year to study Pharmacy, ^^

You're looking at a future pharmacist babes. hahaha. I hope so. Before, I wasnt really convinced about pharmacy coz in my mind ... pharmacy=chemistry, :S But Ka' Jerry explained that it's not necessarily so. Depends on which uni you go to, coz different universities focus on different aspects of pharmacy. Like her uni is focusing more on the quality of something something. hahaha. i think im right. lol x)

It turns out that, she went straight to Brisbane and started her foundation year after Form 5. Which I guess, I'm doing too? Foundation year is basically the easiest, she says.. The syllabus is easier than our form 5, which I find it hard to believe but yeah. Basically today we chatted~ Now, im kinda excited to do pharmacy. hahaha. it's all about taking the right dosage of meds, how to make 'em, talking to patients. I think it's kinda cool... :)

So,yeah. Hope this path is the right one for me. ^^
Cheers!

2010-02-11T03:53:00.000-08:00

11 FEBRUARI 2010
School's sports dayy. ^^

phew. what a day.
part two of SMK Lok Yuk's sports day, done. I feel kinda sad after the whole thing was over... coz I keep remembering that this will be our Last Sports Day in school. O.O even if I try and try to forget that this is our last year in school. I cant. It's like, this reminder is an invisible itch in the back of my mind. Bugging me from time to time... sigh. :'( Whatever it is, I will try and make sure that this year will be one of my best years ever! it has to be!! :D time to make more and more friends~ i hope that once we're outta school and when we come to visit, ada juga orang yang kita boleh cakap " Hiiii" to. hahaha. koyak oh kalau drg ndk balas. i kill them tu nanti. xD

my face is so dark already! T.T I wonder why kan. Asians are fanatics about their faces having to be nice and fair and the orang puteh's are crazy about tanning their skins. O.o we like our skins fairer and they like theirs darker. ihhh. kenapa tu?

2010-01-30T06:07:00.000-08:00

mimimimomomo.
it was Saturday the 30th, but now as the clock strucks midnight, I guess its the 31st already?

i've been meaning to blog since just now, but i forgot all about my blog when I just remembered that I havent done the Jadual Bertugas for Pengawas Percubaan Sidang Pagi. T.T So I kinda left my blog page open without really writing anything .... until now. What time is it ah now? oh, 12.50am. Happy Birthday Lim JiaLing and Aunty Siti~ :)

If you're wondering why is it taking me so long to just make the jadual, well. I was also FB-ing and chatting so lambat sikit siap. hehe. Now I just dont know how to distribute the pp's for perhimpunan isnin coz, full house edi owh. HOW?! tsk, tinggal itu saja owh. *grumbles* i'll finish it tomoro lah, once I ask the bigboss what to do. heh, kan kalau ndk tau tanya~ xD oh yeah, today was our Sports Day!! :D It was sooo fun! I was wearing baju zuhal padahal aku musytari. :P hehehehe

2010-01-23T03:00:00.000-08:00

babe, we rock and the world should know that.

omg.
its been AGES since i last wrote! o.O
i wonder why, everytime I feel like blogging kan, my mood disappears Really Fast. hahaa. weird. Anyways, today is the 23rd of January 2010! dang~ that was FAST. well, todayy my dear peoples was our Larian Kecergasan. *cheers* xD bahaha. nothing much also lah. Today, instead of running with Tanya, i ran with Leya and Brenda!! :D

Leya is soo cute! :DD Kuat ni stamina dia! Babe, you rock! ♥ Running with her and brenda was funn, although we had some incidents along the way ... poor leya. hehehe. I believe I did better this year than last year hehehe. this year, we rann + fast walked. :) terer la tu kunun... bahaha

oh yeah. I just Had to write this. just now while leya,brenda and i were running~ near all saints. our school van came, and I heard the people inside snickering and saying stuff like "hi, mau masuk?". budu oh. but lawak nie~ :) but yay! i did it! my final year of larian kecergasan owh. D: sadddd & memorable at the same time

school has been sooo hectic. if i thought last year was busy. this year is like O.O! i miss last year~ i cant believe im a form 5! tuaaa. xD

2010-01-02T07:18:00.000-08:00

this is for you awesome people.

2010-01-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

Second january 2010.

Around 7.00pm - 8.00pm just now, I was in a super thinking mode. My mood went all serious and my mind was racing on all the things about to happen, etc. O.O i find it weird when i get into that 'mode'. coz then, an hour later, i switch back to my normal self. .... ><
i was thinking on all my mistakes, how am I going to correct them. New year's resolution and all. whoaaaa. How Im not perfect and I need to improve myself, be that person that I know I can be. fuyyooo. heavy duty juga thoughts aku tadi ah? :P
thanks kassim for listening! that was all I needed. hahaha.

ANYWAY.
lets go to more interesting and less sad happenings shall we? :)

Today was outing day. Outing day = nadine,gloria and tanya. hahaha. We went to ...... 1Borneo, again! :) seems to be where we like to hang out? hahaha. no bah, kita tengok Holmes tadi. then we went for our signature 'walk-walk'. ^^

I feel really blessed and fortunate you know... to be friends with someone like nadine,gloria and tanya. They're awesome and spunky ladies. omo~ we r young ladies now. hahaha. From form 1 till form 4, all of us has grown quite a bit eyh? I dont think when we were in form one, thoughts like which college should we go to, what is our life aspiration and what is our thoughts of the future ever cropped up. Now it has. Quite frequently too. Its nice that I can share my thoughts with you guys, and likewise. and as we always do, opinions are given and shared. By now, I'm pretty sure we know each other's personalities and stuff. Sometimes, we end up saying the same things. xD

They say Im the most predictable one. haha. I guess its true then if that's what they said. To my best friends, wei. tua kita suda oh. haha. seniors baby. i dont feel different tho, kan kan kan? cam besa jak. lol ;] i just want to say thanks for everything Nay,Tanya and Gloria. You guys are so awesomely hilarious and cool? yeah yeah. kembang la kamurang sana. :)

2009-12-26T05:22:00.000-08:00

You give me something~
Its Exactly 9.30pm.

Jackets hung by the window at the back ... Blocking the sun's rays from penetrating the glass and making the air hot. It matters not, for we are going up up up. To the mountains we go. I sit curled up with a book borrowed from a friend. Making myself comfortable with pillows from home. Luggage on one side, i had the whole backrow to myself. heh! such an advantage :) Sitting down, fully absorbed in the tales of Riders and dragons, elves and dwarves, of legends too. and so we go.

Im back from the mountains! :D
It was awesome awesome awesome. The mists were really thick, which meant that it was also COLD. I loved every second of watching the mists that envelopes our chalet. It rained too. Sejuk gila~ :) there were alot of 'twilight' moments. hahaha. coz of the trees, the lighting and the mists. no worries, i loved it. pictures will be up soon. here, the chalet pics. On the second day, we went to have a fish massage. Not at a spa. Oh no~ no no no.
Nay, if u remembered that river? we went there Again! xD i still feel 'geli' laaa. those silly fishies were sucking. whoops. sorry. that sounded so wrong. hahahahaha.

they were nibbling? erm, eating away dead epithelials ba tuu. haha. GELI. eeeee. Slimy fishing against your legs. Bite bite. Nibble nibble. and if you lower your hands with some round food stuff. they will suck your hand. giving a Loud "pop' sound. pop pop pop. silly fishies. slimy they were.

we also went to the National Park. yay! we were going to have brunch there, but the food was not ready. Sooo, my parents went to sit down, and my brothers and I went exploring~ this is the most awesomely best part ever!! we were walking and then we found this HUGE fake rafflesia flower. and this, is why my brothers are awesome and hilarious. Narrating it would be hard. for izzy is so damn awesome. he imitated the guy from Man vs Wild show... hahahaa. to those who I am meeting on the 2nd. :) heeeee, you'll see. :D

2009-12-20T07:25:00.000-08:00

11.26pm

bahaha. i bought a suju album babes. why are there chinese songs too? xP
beebaaboo.
not gonna say much. byee.

2009-12-15T07:15:00.000-08:00

that was not nice. no.
11.16pm

i dislike people who doesn't know when NOT to bring up certain embarassing moments of their friend's. i mean, come on! certain things can be shared. but others?? please. if it happened, shut up. you dont need to post it on my 'wall' and let the whole world know. i deleted it. you gonna laugh now?

2009-12-13T06:31:00.000-08:00

make it happen.
13.12.2009 : 10.30pm

life at home is dull.
until now.
now my house is noisy with three hyper people laughing over matters that may seem silly to you. it's awesome! Izzy is soooo hyper. Just talk about fishes, and then he gets a bit high talking about his fishing experiences. FUNNY. He's a fishing addict for sure. o.o Sim, on the other hand is a bit scary. It's like he has split personality~ o.O one moment he'll be all gloomy then suddenly he'll crack a lame joke and start laughing. mood turnover instantly. from gloomy to happy. happy to excited. my brothers are weeeird.
cool.

VENTING.
why are some of my cousins just so talented? its soooo unfair~ hahaha. i recently met up with some KL cousins on the night izhizm got home. My grandmother decided to bring us all to Kg Nelayan right from the airport. I didnt know, so I just wore a jacket and sweatpants. -.- sedih akuuuu. oh wells. its not like anybody noticed? ><> 4 of them. Two is in secondary, one in primary school and the other one is still young. These brothers kan, wahhseehhh. One of them is a Malaysian representative for CHESS. He competed against Asian region, if im not mistaken. Apparently, he's Brilliant at chess. O.O then another brother is taekwando dude. tegap juga la dia tuu. then the other one is something. xD aku lupa~

sniffs. why?? oh yeah, my cousins looks like chinese!!! :) heeee. mata dorang sepet sangat.

2009-12-10T07:32:00.000-08:00

11.45pm
this is not the end. i refuse.

The Mirotic Album is quite soothing, surprisingly. Bigbang's album is soo techno ish but the mirotic one is completely the opposite. great song collection i have to say. i'm listening to it now actually. i feel so calm and content ! ^^,

Gentleness adorns everything and its absence makes everything defective - Muslim

2009-12-09T00:35:00.000-08:00

Flying back home to dear Kota Kinabalu.
4.36pm

I have about ten minutes to blog so this will be a rather short one. heee. Guess where I am? Im currently in the Golden Lounge arah KLIA. Im sure you're thinking that, oooh, she's going first class. heee, nope.. not at all. Im actually going on economy class... ^^

then how did I manage to get into the golden lounge? my mom. heee. she's an Enrich member so she gets to bring along whoever to the golden lounge with her. Something about redeeming points. Like, bonuslink. Whatever it is, hehehee. coool... but it is awfully awfully freezing in here!!!!! im shivering, although a cup of milo helps a little bit. :)

bahaha, gtg! boarding at 4.50pm or something. :)
*signs off*

2009-12-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

BigBang!!

in my recent post, I remembered complaining about not getting my bigbang album riight?
guess what?
I FOUND IT!!!
woooots! :D :D :D
it was all sheer luck man!!
Thank You God for giving me the chance to own my very own BigBang album! :D hehehe. The first time I went to Speedy in Midvalley Megamall kan, I couldnt find the BigBang Album. All I saw was SS501, SHinee, TVXQ, RAIN, Suju, Wondergirls, Brown eyed girls, and some others. So today, after choosing the mirotic album, i was just browsing through some SS501 CD's and some Shinee CD's. then suddenly behind the Shinee album .... BigBang.
My reaction : eeps! no wayyy. eee, yes la! :D yay!! *grabs the album before someone else does*
the pictures inside also lawa. but si daesung, seungri and taeyang have their own nicknames. weeird. d-lite,VI and sol. hmm?

Ooooh, and there were tons of TVXQ album's. no one buys them? :( nah~ they just have a lot of stock for the TVXQ fans.

I bought their album! Their Mirotic album~ :) It comes with a nice package. I get two free badges of the TVXQ members. Hero and someone whose face I cant tell coz he was looking down. booo. hehe. Anyways, i love the album. It's sooo cool. Coz they have pictures and everything. hmm, that picture above of yunho is slightly disturbing. hahaha. ><

2009-12-06T00:44:00.000-08:00

i am liking F.O.S

KL SALE IS AWESOME! :D
but walking into shops like Forever21 and Topshop is abit like,
awwkwaard.
mahal ehhh. but i see alot of nice shirts there in mags ahh.
but when i walked in the shop today riiight, i saw this oh-so-simple knitted longsleeve with just a lame picture of a reindeer on it.
RM 219.
-.- "
i mean, to me that shirt is soooo not worth RM219. Heck, I can buy 2 bags with that much money. hahahaha :D
oh oh oh! to whoever, please drop by SUNWAY PYRAMID.

there's this part of the mall known as the Asian Village or something kann.
:) :) :) :) :) :)
its sooo cute. i didnt take a picture ohh~ nevermind. fact is, i love that place! ehehe, the shirts/dresses/flippyflops/shoes/clothings there are affordable and pretty! :D me loveeee. i wish i bought some shirts from there. pah.

it's really like a modern village of goodies. lots of little corners here and there with lots of wonderful clothings and bags. oooh, daddy bought me a bag! ahahaha. i wasnt sure which one to get, so he told me to pick one from this shop. And i narrowed it down to this silvery grey tote bag with lots of compartment and a sling/hand bag strap AND this crescent-shaped orange totebag with some fringes thingy. ><

i got the grey one coz it can be a sling bag and a handbag. so, :). lalala~ oh yeah, my quest to look for BigBang CD's = one concert CD at RM26.90. Okay kan?
They had more of Superjunior, Wondergirls and Lots of Rain's CD. and SS501, BOF soundtrack, FTisland. old one i think..
i want bigbang CD bahh.
concert pun okay lah, i guess. Bersyukur~ tapi! haha. susah cari ni. :S

I have three days left and here are the things I want to get. Christmas presents for Kak Kerry, Kak Lucia and Kak Pauline. Stuff for both my grandmothers and some goodies for the kakak's at home and Nor. Ohh yeah, I still need to find SHOES/JACKET(s)/BOOKS/ CALENDAR 2010/ Cute Tee's. then i shall be done. xD

Year End Sale
hahahhaa. :D

p.s: i miss home.

2009-12-01T20:37:00.000-08:00

December~

Im off to KL this afternoon.
We're going a bit earlier than planned. nvm~
yay! shopping~ :D
i cant wait!
this should be fun... although I'm still finding it hard to believe that Im actually going to
Kuala Lumpur noww.

entah kenapa. hehehe. my final 'enjoy-enjoy' before i get grounded. lol~ :P
its the end of they year, and christmas is in 3 weeks or so.
that means.
SALE! :D
♥

2009-11-30T20:45:00.000-08:00

it stinks.

so.
some people decided to reclaim the land infront of my house, facing the sea.
you know, if you're driving from yayasan sabah on the way to the big mosque? on your left, usually there is this biiiig 'lake'? yeah, that's the one.
it's being reclaimed.
i dont know how much them construction people are going to reclaim it though. ):

good thing : i heard they are building a school or something? and, a Syariah Court here. but the BAD thing is. it stinks. literally. wait, i dont think you get it.
here we go.

infront of my house, there is this small, well. Pond. Which is directly connected to the 'lake' i mentioned earlier. We have many mudskippers, and there was once an otter in that pond.
hahaha, yeah. an Otter in my backyard. cool eyh? ^^ oh, and we've seen a monkey too.

but thennn. since they did what they did (construction peeps). the pond died. it turned a disgusting shade of BLACK. ewwwww.
so goodbye marine life i'd say. poor things...
my dad said that the mosque's sewage water and the stuff spilling from the construction killed the pond. something about backflow of water & no circulation. entah ehh.

fact is. it S.T.I.N.K.S ! i hate it sooooo much. the fishies were floating upside down. dead obviously. otter's gone a long time ago. i wonder where the biawak's will go.? obviously it cant eat the fishies there anymore. :(

2009-11-29T08:08:00.000-08:00

BEEBAABOO.

it's 12.15am on a Monday.

It's been a busy few days + lazyness. I've been going to the Korban and wedding. Not to mention going out again. Sigh. Hopefully this week will be more productive than last. Amin!

Episode 16 of You're Beautiful is out which draws the final episode for the hit series. Im going to miss this drama! ^^ The ending was quite nice, unfortunately I havent been able to watch it just yet. Although i DO know what happened! :P hint: dramabeans.com

so noww, im hooked on the ever so famous Goong: Princess Hours. ^^,

its really really nice! i'm loving it so far, and I think i will continue loving it till the end. I tried looking for the CD just now at Speedy@1Borneo .. but they only had it with BM subtitles, which Im sorry to say, I wasnt really keen on buying. The ones with the eng subs are sold out. :( oh wells, im watching it on youtube now. :D im going to limit myself to two episodes a day.
(must keep telling myself that) ><

oh yeah, im loving all the k-drama's ive watched! :D thank to queenie and nadine who introduced them to me. and also Niza. xD BOF, or also known as Boys Over Flowers. i like. it played earlier this year actually, only at that time I wasnt at all into all this K-drama Mania. but oh boy, now I am! :D i wanted to share this picture from that drama, they are my favouuriteee couple! heeeeee. they are sooo cute. gah, i want more stories on them. im talking about yi jung and ga eul ^^

:)

p.s : May Allah SWT bless all those who went for Hajj in the holy city of Mecca today and forever. InsyaAllah. :)

2009-11-26T22:13:00.000-08:00

Selamat hari raya aidil adha! :) 2.18pm

PHEW. What a morning! We went to the mosque to pray this morning ... I usually pray together with my mom upfront, but this time I decided to see what it's like praying at the back. I had my friend with me, so it was okay... :) but, I couldnt hear the imam's khutbah very well.
The speakers were muffled. and the fact that the ladies behind me was chit-chatting away did not help either. I mean, i was trying really really hard to Listen.

and I dont appreciate those people chit-chatting. hmph. and during the time i was praying riight.
omg. this kid was wailing. when everybody went all silent to pray and stuff.
this kid was wailing her head off. i mean,
okay fiine, she's just a kid but
*sigh -.-

and after the prayers, the people behind me were photo-shooting. hahaha. yeah, taking pics.
i guess that is totally fine and all but,
cant you wait till after the imam's done?
courtesy people!
oh whatever. tomoro is going to be interesting ..... and bloody. ><

im scared, again. but this morning was F.U.N. my grandmother and aunties came over for 'makan-makan'. they had a go at my Laksa, and LIKED IT.
bangganyaa akuu~
even though i just helped prepare all the ingredients and my mom told me what to do.
still! ♥ i am proud of myself. xD

2009-11-25T22:01:00.000-08:00

awhhh. fish.

so, yeah. its Aidiladha tomoro ... so this morning we went shopping for ingredients to make Laksa! I followed my parents out to the markett to buy fish,vege's and other good things. :) There was such a traffic jam at the market today. Cars especially. Guess we were not the only ones shopping for foods eh~ hahaha.. Trip to the fish market was .... interesting. There was this 'leopard' skinned fish i saw? yeah, no kidding. I wonder what fish that was. It's kinda long... *scratches head..

owh. i saw a baby shark just now. no doubt, i saw one and it did not give me good vibes.
i felt kinda bad for the poor shark. its small. layin' there on the mat
well, bad new for the fishermen if it was huge eh? chomp.chomp.

this morning was exciting. HAHAHA
pictures will come later, but today i had my first time
gutting a fish. eww, i know. ><
they're sliiimyy. but it's kinda exciting~ xD coz, i remembered my biology notes about how fishies breathe. so i was looking for the lamellae and filaments and all... :D
it got bloody. coz i had to cut the gills and remove the fishy's stomach.
bluek.

now my hand smells like fish. note : i already bathed. with dettol soap somemore.
i still smell like fish! my hand!! :(
help.

sunset glow.

2009-11-25T04:23:00.000-08:00

CHERRY :)

today is officially our very first study group! :D
i think we did okay, it was kinda fun. we laughed alot which is good. but we also did work. we did biology in the morning and add maths in the afternoon.
alongside editing blog layouts, reading the latest in kpop news, looking through pictures, and listening to music. that was in between our session.
morning was most productive i think. we finally got our bearings on the whole mitosis thing.

http://www.johnkyrk.com/mitosis.html
thanks to this website. it cleared the mists that was hanging over the mitosis and meiosis stuff. ahahaha. now, that helped. study group-ing is fun.
but i think we need to try and set our targets more firmly. HAHA.
we learn~ yes we do.

Next week again. It's sejarah and english literature. kewl.

so, i changed my blog layout coz the other one crashed. well, kinda. but i love this one. simple and sweet. i am officially in love, yes in love with k-pop. heee. not all. i do have specific ones that i like. bigbang. superjunior. dbsk. i love korean songs. the beat is so, catchy.
will post more soon, i've spent too much time online as it is.

supercalifragilisticexpealidoucious - Marry poppins

Haru Haru, english version

2009-11-25T04:12:00.000-08:00

HARU-HARU

Leave
Yeah, Finally I realize that I am nothing without you
I was so wrong, forgive me
Ah ah ah ah

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like a wind
My heart vanished like smoke
It can't be removed like a tattoo
I sigh deeply as if a ground is going to cave in
Only dusts are piled up in my mind
(Say goodbye)

Yeah, I thought I wouldn't be able to live even one day without you
But somehow I managed to live on (longer) than I thought
You don't answer anything as I cry out "I miss you"
I hope for a vain expectation but now it's useless

What is it about that person next to you, did he make you cry?
Dear can you even see me, did you forget completely?
I am worried, I feel anxiety because I can't get close nor try to talk to you
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times
[Chorus]
Don't look back and leave
Don't find me again and live (on)
Because I have no regrets from loving you, take only the good memories
I can bear it in some way
I can stand in some way
You should be happy if you are like this
I become dull day by day (eh eh eh eh)
Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye...

If we pass by each other on the street
Act like you didn't see me and go the way you were walking to
If you keep thinking about our past memories
I might go look for you secretly

Always be happy with him, (so) I won't ever get a different mind
Even smallest regret won't be left out ever
Please live well as if I should feel jealous
You should always be like that bright sky, like that white cloud
Yes, you should always smile like that as if nothing happened

[Chorus]

I hope your heart fees relieved
Please forget about me and live (on)
Those tears will dry completely
As time passes by
It would've hurt less if we didn't meet at all (mm)
Hope you will bury our promise of being together forever baby
I pray for you

[Chorus]

Oh girl I cry, cry
You're my all, say goodbye, bye
Oh my love don't lie, lie
You're my heart, say goodbye

permulaan.

2009-11-23T20:06:00.000-08:00

" With love and care all things grow beautifully"

it's the second week of the holidays and so far i'm not so satisfied with myself. i cant seem to shake this lazyness off me. so many distractions, i need to focus. concentrate. i really need to put my act back together and do it right this time. no time for more regrets and errors. it's all about the careful planning and ultimately just doing it.

the goal for the week is to plan my time.

i can talk all i want but if it's all just ... 'talk'. im wasting time. im talking now. hmmph. im starting to realize that you cannot wait for inspiration to come, but you have to Be Inspired. nothing will come to you if you dont go to them right? that makes sense. i think. i am going to try today.
computers are a major distraction.
no kidding.

i have now identified my ultimate distraction.
you guessed it.
computers.
:)

must learn to control myself. heee.

will we be okay?

one twooo

2009-11-21T02:47:00.001-08:00

hip hip hurrah.

mati karan over at my place. yippeedodeee. im BORED. my laptop's battery is running out. i shouldhave charged it! :( oh well, still another 1/2 hour left. pooh. just now kan, someobody sms-ed me. " Hey fairuz, im on my way to Sabah now ... xD See you when i get there .. xD"

Problem is, i dont know the number who sent that to me. O.O , WAIT. the ELECTRICITY is on!! :D :D yayyyy! i wonder who that person is! :S

The next day. Happy. (:

2009-11-07T02:58:00.000-08:00

oh my drama.
i absolutely hate it when the show puts a super suspense exciting thrilling scene hanging and you have to wait for another 7 days to know what had happened! eeeeeeeeeee. i cant waiiit!

before leaving, i want to share some songs. i really really love this song. ♥ meremang bulu roma.. go seungri! ♥

felt like sharing another favourite song of mine ...

Happy by Leona Lewis

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be

CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by

CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng

CHORUS
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

im still awake? :P

2009-11-06T12:50:00.000-08:00

Good morning folks!
Ahh, yes. What a wonderful dawn. Too bad the sun isnt out yet. :P

it's 4.52am currently. and as you can see, no im not sleeping. when everybody else is snoring away. Im really quite awake. :] i discovered (kinda) that I study best in the wee hours of the morning. seriously. coz around the span of 12-5. it really is quite peaceful and i can concentrate. no distractions. well, with the exception of my laptop and the internet. :) heee. but my laptop is my best friend. it keeps me company with mv's, songs and chats. XP

and in any case tanya is reading. dont worry, i didnt stay awake the whole time. i mean, i Slept earlier and then I woke up. so, im not really sleep deprived. Heee~ i slept around 8 because i had a headache, took panadol and ZzZzZ... :P , then i scheduled my alarm to wake me up around 9.30. but it didnt work. all it did was get my mom flustered. [she didnt know how to shut my alarm off. poor mum] it kept ringing and ringing. and yes, you guessed it. i didnt wake up. hahaha.

i must be really tired but how i got up after that beats me. well, i woke up at 11. and i took a bath. tengah malam. wwoooo. so refreshing! :D washed my hair and scrubbed me body. definitely felt awake.

so, from 12 to 1am. i was FB-ing with friends who werent asleep. hahaha. its quite fun actually. really enjoyed myself. then i decided to buffer the next episode of my favourite drama You're Beautiful. im still just ep9 oh. queenie bilang ep10 best. :] then i studied. hahaha. yes. study tyme. chemistry. managed to finish 3 chapters. at least, what tips tch gave. i read those sja. i dont think me burning the midnight oil is for nothing. even if my result is not as good. at least some concepts im starting to 'get it'. better now or never ey? :) so, now. i dont really want to study. now, im going to watch my drama. ;] i think i deserved it.

still a long way to go. oh well. at least im marching a few steps forward.

thoughts.

2009-10-24T23:04:00.000-07:00

WE NEED

I N S P I R A T I O N

I HOPE I CAN ANSWER MY QUESTIONS AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. :)
TIME TO LOCATE ME ANSWERS AYY.

WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE?
HOW DO I KNOW I WONT REGRET MY FUTURE?

HMM. THIS NEEDS SOME THINKING. HAAHAA. BUT RYTE NOW, IM GOING TO JUST TRY. I NEED TO DRAW ANOTHER ROCKET.

done. woots.

2009-10-16T07:08:00.000-07:00

i am hooked on a new korean drama. it just spells l.o.v.e coz its so funny and cute and adorable. introducing my new favourite korean drama : YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL

this drama is so nice! :D its excellant. sigh. im happy. let's see my Favourite guy is Shinwoo. you see the guy with the ribbon as his necktie? wheee~ i like him. like like like him. hahahaa. anyways, this drama is so nice. i'll talk more later on. me wants to go offline. will talk soon.

before leaving. i want to share this picture nadine shared with me. so shweet. ♥♥♥ i love it.

ketiga.

2009-10-12T06:39:00.000-07:00

here we go again.

1. Will you talk to the person you like on the phone tonight? i dont have his number. hahaha. nolah, there's none right now.
2. Ever had a near death experience? no.
3. Where’s your cell phone? its behind me.
4. What is the last thing you thought about? my new nancy drew CD's my mom just bought.
5. Do you regret anything? a few.
6. If you found out you were pregnant who would you tell? my husband.then my family and kawan2.
7.What are you going to do this weekend? it's still a long way to go. entah.
8. When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? Today :)
9. Do you prefer revenge or just pure jealousy/envy? neither.
10.Who would you like your next “fling” to be with? with nobody dummy.
11. Would you curse in front of your parents? kadang2 terlepas ckp. :(
12. What kind of camera do you have? Lumix
13. Would you rather go to a party or out of town? out of town
14. Are you slowly drifting away from someone close? yeah.
15. When was the last time you held someone’s hand? just now :)
16. Who can you tell everything to? my teddybear ♥
17.Can you play guitar hero? no not yet.
18. is any part of your body sore? not really.
19. missing someone right now? i miss a lot of people.
20. is there someone on your mind that shouldn’t be? HAHA.
21. When was the last time you saw the person you last kissed? dot dot dot dot.
22. Do you like your phone? ♥♥♥
23. Last thing alcohol beverage? i dont do alcohol.
24. Have you ever slept in a bed with the opposite sex? my brothers. hahaha
25. Have any of your best friends ever back stabbed you? yes
26. If you had to move in with a friend, which one would you pick? Nadine!. Life would be as fun as anything with her around.
27. What’s the seventh text message in your inbox say? Thanks for inviting us! SOrry didnt talk much. enjoy the cake. -Gloria
28. When is your next road trip? soon i hope.
29. What did you do the weekend? lalala~
30. Met anyone new in the past week? no, i didnt.
31. What does your bestfriends call you? FAI~
32. Who was the last person to go to the movies with you? my besties. dah lama didnt watch movie la.
33. Are you currently fighting with someone? no.
34. Last time you had butterflies in your stomach? i forgot.
35. Who/What would you like to see right now? Id like to see izzy and play nancy drew games!!!
36. Are you mad at someone right now? no
37. What’s the nicest text in your inbox say? :] sssh.
38. Do you mainly use your house phone or your cell phone? mobile.
39. Is there an empty place in your heart? lemme check.
40. Do you count down the days till anything? Birthday!
41. Are you looking forward to something as of right now? yes. the day after wednesday.
42. Have you ever been called a tease? ada kali.
43. What are your chances of getting with your crush? we'll see.
44. What is the farthest you’ve traveled with a friend? across the ocean
45. Are any of your friends so close that you consider them family? definitely.
46. Anyone told you a secret this week? we-ell. :P
47. Do you ever turn your cell phone off? yess
48. Do you hate anyone? nopes
49. Last time you wore the opposite sex’s clothing?-
50. What do you want in your life right now? taking the right career
51. When was the last time you laughed so hard you thought you were going to cry? whenever im with nadine,tanya and gloria. they are Hilarious!
52. Did you tell someone something today? i told someone somthing which could be anything always
53. Do you trust people easily? i dont.
54. What were you doing at 9pm Friday night? writing at a fast speed. rumusan in tuition

Habis! :D

part twoo.

2009-10-12T06:23:00.000-07:00

From now on, you can’t tell lies, are you ready?

1.Think back eight months ago, were you single? i've always been single
2. What do you carry with you at all times? my handphone and wallet.
3. Who was the last person of the opposite sex you text messaged? my brother.
4. How are you feeling? tired :(
5. Is something wrong right now? yes.
6. Are you mad at someone? not really.
7. Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow? nopes. i slept today
8. Are you jealous of someone right now? well,yeah~
9. Do you have a piggy bank that’s actually shaped like a pig? haha, no. mine's a kitty!
10. What’s the last thing you put in your mouth? hershey's kisses
11. What are you suppose to be doing right now? Akauns. pah.
12. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle? :P i've done that,yes
13. Could you handle a long distance relationship? i dont know. maybe not.
14. Could you cry right now? no,but give me a sad drama where people are crying and you'll see Me in tears.
15. Do you ever think about stuff and start crying? pernah juga.
16. Are you okay with the life you live? sure. wouldnt trade a second of it.
17. Did you enjoy your day today? soso.
18. Do you have a Tattoo? no and im Never going to have one.
19. Would you ever get any piercings on your body, other than your ear? noppity no no
20. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? no
21. What was the last thing you spent money for? The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale
22. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? ibu saya
23. Do you call it fall or autumn? i call it autumn!

reply to the tag.

2009-10-12T06:06:00.000-07:00

so there are three parts to this Tag. ONE.

If you're a guy- post this as my kind of girl. If you're a girl- post it as my kind of boy..

my kind of boy ♥

1. Do you need him/her to be good looking? yes! :D
2. Smart? Preferably.
3. Preferred age? we-ell,depends kali.
4. Preferred height? he must be taller than me.
5. How about sense of humor? must have! i love humour!
6. How about piercings? tdk suka.
7. Accepts you for who you are? yes yes yes
8. Pink hair? no thanks.
9. Mushy or no? hmm. depends.
10. Thin or fat? neither. tegap~
11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? -
12. Long hair or short hair? short,no long hair
13. Plastic or metal? -
14. Smells good? hehehe. sure~
15. Smoker? never ever ever
16. Drinker? minum jus?
17. Girl/Boy-next-door type? :)
18. Muscular? okay. but NOT, i repeat NOT MrWorld type body. then i go Ewwww! :(
19. Plays piano? romantic-ish. i like. :)
20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar? cool~ can also bah
21. Plays violin? *melts* :D
22. Sings very good? why not? that'd be nice
23. Vain? ermh. boleh juga rasanya. not toooo vain.
24. With glasses? i kinda wear them, so? okay bh.
25. With braces? boleh saja
26. Shy type? cannot Too Shy
27. Rebel or good boy/girl? Good boy. lol
28. Active or passive? active
29. Tight or bomb? -
30. Singer or dancer? singer ♥
31. Stunner? sure
32. Hiphop? noh
33. Earrings? NO
34. Mr/Ms. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop? then i'd say GET A LIFE. so
35. Dimples? ♥ cute.
36. Bookworm? can.
37. Mr/Ms. love letter? :)
38. Playful? medium.
39. Flirt? at appropriate times yes. overly flirty, no.
40. Poem writer? sure.
41. Serious? yes!
42. Campus crush? you never know, it can happen
43. Painter? creative.
44. Religious? someone who practices and fears God.
45. Someone who likes to tease people? dont over do it.
46. Computer games geek? Or internet freak? neither.
47. Speaks 20 languages? no way. he can talk bad about me and I wouldnt even know it. haha
48. Loyal or faithful? kedua-duanya sekali.
49. Good kisser? :]
50. Loves children? yes

pelita lights.

2009-10-10T09:28:00.000-07:00

pelita lights lead the way.

its already 12.32am and it has been exactly one hour since my last guests depart from my house. Tanya and Fiona. i gave them fruits! cuz we had too manyy. hee. oh,im eating the cake gloria gave me at this present moment, while subconciously listening to the news yapping about north korea. its a cream cake,decorated with fresh tropical fruit [except for the strawberrys,they're not local]. Yummm. After this, im eating an orange! a mandarin orange~ siggh. can't believe after all those food im still rather itching to snack on something. :P

i hope my friends enjoyed themselves tonight. i know i did. it was so fun! :D you guys rock! literally. its fun to see all the different kinda personalities and stuff. how cheryl kok Laughs Histerically. The poor thing kena buli tonight. :) in a most loving friendly way of course! wheeeee. I want to say thank you all for coming tonight~ it means so much to me that you people came! I hope you managed to stuff yourself with fooood. coz bila lagiii?

one precious moment i cannot forget is how loo chun cheng, soo yk,fiona and jeremiah came SO EARLY! i was just putting my eye-liner on lohh. Then you people came. My heart dropped when I heard Loo spoke the words "We're here already". I was like, WHAAAAAAT?! *grabs at nearest watch faster than you can say cockle doodle doo* baru 6.50pm punn. omg. then i ran down and just wrapped a tudung around my head and ushered those early birds in. sheeesh. and i was like going, eeeeeee. why you come now. hahaha. im not ready!! comein comein. sit ahh. i go finish up first. then dorang ketawa. aiks! :P :P i bet they were Amused. HAH!

anyways. tonight was special. ♥ A special note to a dearr friend. Tanya :)
- thanks for staying back longer than the others, and accompanying me until the last person left. aww,you so sweet. haha :) you rawk girl!

good day to you.

2009-10-07T20:28:00.000-07:00

You and me.

Another rainy day today. The coconut trees are as still as anything. The air is damp,and even with the fan on at speed one, its as though I switched the air conditioner on. Pah. I am finishing up my chemistry correction. eee, exams are overr. I gather I should like read my akauns or something. coz, tinggal only that and maths paper one. maths i'll do tonight. later lah i do akauns.

I changed my blog layout. The old one is simple and sweet but this one just rocks! :] I love my music player. hehee. its a cassette, in aquamarine. sigh. :D :D attention to all viewers. i have a situation. the ants in my house are abnormal. Let's go with the laws of nature. Ants like sweet stuff and whatever food substances they can get their 'hands' on right? Yeah, well my ants are plain ridiculous. :P Leave a cup of sweet drink on the table and in 10 minutes you see a line of ants marching towards their newfound treasure of sweetness. YOu dont get me. Sure, that's what they usually do.

My ants attack a glass of plain water. Water with no sweetness. Just pure H2O, straight out of the bottle. Leave a cup on my table and next thing you know, you see ants inside and outside the glass. I mean, helloooo. What could they possibly get? You know the answer ka? :L help. it beats my logic to think why they do that.

Maya Angelou has some great quotes. GO check them out.

I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw something back.
Maya Angelou

one.two.three.

2009-10-07T10:22:00.000-07:00

Goodnight.

Hello world.
I'm awake now.

I was supposed to sleep but I got carried away making my new blog layout since everyone updated theirs. heehee. mana boleh kalah.. :P Im not going to write much as me wants to catch my beauty sleep. :) tis been a rainy day today. very rainy until our school drain was overflowed with water. can you imagine? :O and it was coldd tooo! rahr. i made new playlists and all, finalleee. oh, and if a certain person called Nadine is reading this... :-

how do you put the song on this layout oh nayy? other than me putting it on my "blog" link. hehehe. you kan genius sangat abt these things. heee. help me? :3

oh, nadine good luck bisok. i want to sms you but later i wake you up. kesian kau. its one am btw. hahaha. All the besty nadine! :) gambateh bebeh. :P!
exams are oberr. after 4 gruelling-brain-frying weeks. i need to rejuvinate my brain cells. poor things. aha~ :)

faifai is feelin' slightly happy today! :) my bio marks went up,up,up! now i just pray that my paper 2 will be enough to pass and maybe get a C? i want it soooo badd. :S chemistry is abit down the drain tho~ :( pah.

penghabisan.
>sorry to those who unintentionally I hurted>you never know how some actions of yours affect others>kekadang terlanjur kata. :(

NOKIA

2009-08-14T19:19:00.001-07:00

so, im getting a new phone.
for my birthday this year.

if that's all I get I am TOTALLY OKAY WITH IT :D

because
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tadaa! the nokia 5730 express music ;)
my new handphone on the 25th.
im paying 40% and my parents the other 60%

its kinda cool, the QWERTY pad i'll use it i guess
mind you, this phone kan, will be my baby sampai college
:)
hope so.
lawa jugalah. i ♥ this phone.

it comes in blue, but malaysia only has the red and black stock. :(
me likes BLUE!
nevermind la

randome

2009-08-14T19:07:00.000-07:00

dear cashewnuts

the world is a crazy place
agree?
the weather's gone crazy, the people has gone crazy too!
the earth is crying, ice caps of tears.
but still we buy beeg beeg engines for our cars to show off
exploding bombshells of gases from the exhausts
heck, they're not eco-friendly
we're suffocating earth
literally

animals are running helter skelter
where do they go?
fire in the east,
logging in the west
sooon no more homes,
byebye habitat.
bye bye forests.
byebye humans.

...................................................................................

random post. HEHEE, entah where it came from?....

imma bookworm in disguise.

2009-05-27T18:07:00.000-07:00

current read.

i read the previous books by this author, and they were GOOD :)

1. JOURNEY DOWN TO RIVER-SEA 2. THE SECRET COUNTESS

i hope this book is good as well. looks interesting.
im going to fill this post with books i read. heee, im gg for my report card today.
but while waiting, why not? ;)

Let'see, I'll start with Harry Potter series. :D i ♥ ♥ ♥ them
author : J.K Rowling [wizard in writing]
♥ thanks for writing Harry Potter!

the cast of Harry Potter

heee! i ♥ this picturee. =D
from left : daniel,emma,rupert.

NEXT BOOK

what about Pendragon? :D
ooooh, i love this book too! siuk berabis.

this is only ONE of the books though. try it.
more about it here.
http://www.thependragonadventure.com/

Another favourite book of mine, Crystal Doors Trilogy.

this is just book one,there are three. :)
and I have them all. and keeps re-reading them. heee

Apa lagi ah? Oh yeah, Eragon.

Basically,
a story about this guy who found a dragons egg.
And the legend of the Dragon Riders emerge again.
And fight those evil people and such. :)

if i had my way, i'd spend hours here listing all the books.
but i need to download songs for mom.
so, sampai sini dulu.
i will update it l8er on. :D

rocket science bebeh!

2009-05-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

24 may 2009
hujung minggu
its a rather productive 1/2 morning

we went out for breakfast today.
a place called Hameeda for some good ol' roti canai
only i had roti kaya
but it tasted bitter. -.-
so i ordered normal roti canai with chicken curry :D

seriously,try the chicken curry there. it is so :D

we actually went out for breakfast with my abang&kakak angkat
he brought along his friends,
Dr Nawar [cool guy] and Yusof i think. from maldives.

kak Aini told me to ask this Dr Nawar on study tips.
he is the youngest orthopedic surgeon/graduate in Malaysia. :o
he is super nice~ :)

at first, segan lah nak ckp with him.
but okey lah after that. he told me to think
dont ask my mom or my kakak,
what and where i'll be in 9 years.

what is my ambition?
fuh,soalan berat tu.

dia cakap, once he finish makan, dia nak tgk.
don't show my parents ka siapa. me sja.

and he drew me a rocket.
p.s : i coloured it with photoshop. =P

here it is.
my vision rocket.

the triangle on top shows what i want to be.

he told me that, he did this rocket when he was in form 4 too.
its all about the vision :)
cara belajar semua tu, kita yang cari.
but mesti ada Vision

the yellow box is my aspirations for SPM,the blue box is my choice of uni and the green box is where i'll work. ;)

its never too late to start thinking about it. tanamkan semangat dan again .... vision
this guy takes things from a totally different perspective.
i like. :)

my parents is not supposed to see this.
lol.
but me dad kept asking.
*winks*

he shook my hand ni bah when he saw what i wrote at the triangle. :P
hehe
he said that he, wanted to be a doctor,
so he took a shirt and wrote Dr Nawar at the back.

he told me that he thinks,feels,believes he is a doctor already.
to tanamkan the minat.

he comes from a very poor family. its a long story so i'd probably tell it next time.

we ate kelapa bakar.
pernah cuba?
not bad you know, it tasted like kacang.
try it and you'll know what i mean.
yummy!
we sat at a stall tepi jalan, around salut and ate it.

i had coconut pudding in a coconut~ ;) nice!

VIRGO BABES~

2009-05-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

18.05.2009
MONDAY

this is 90% true for me.

Virgo

You may seem cold and detached, yet at times you can actually be quite outgoing. This is because your perception is your reality. If you have a negative outlook, your life will include negative twists and turns and you will often retreat into your inner feelings. If you have a positive outlook, your life will feel positive and you will be a more pleasant, upbeat person to be around. You are sensitive to your surroundings, but you don't like to analyze your feelings. You are inclined to tell people that everything is going well, even when it is not.

Emotions
You appear calm to friends and family, but inside you are always analyzing and thinking with a high degree of nervous energy. You can tire yourself out without even moving. You have a constant need to perfect, which can easily lead to you being perceived as picky and finicky by your family and friends.

Virgo Decisions
Some people might think that you are indecisive or slow to make a decision. In fact, you are just taking your time to weigh all the facts before you decide what you are going to do. You are very good at problem-solving because you like to separate all the elements, think about each one and then slowly put them back together again to determine what they all mean. Your rational thinking often frustrates other people

Family and friendship
You have charm and dignity, and you appear to be cheerful and agreeable. People seek you out to be your friend, but they sense that it is best to wait until you show you're ready. Once you do, they will appreciate your truthfulness, loyalty and determination

Romance
Virgos like planned dates – nothing spontaneous. You tend to embarrass easily. You worry about what is going to happen or be discussed on dates and in relationships. You don't like people probing your mind and asking you a lot of questions until you have formed a strong relationship with them. Even then, you do not feel very comfortable being asked questions.

Here we go

2009-05-02T23:18:00.000-07:00

3rd May 2009
It's gona be the last week of exams.

I have got to beee the laziest blogger eberr.
Tak pandai update on a daily basis.
Well I did warn yeh that i have EXAMS.

for I dunnow. THREE WEEKS?

Being dramatic. Minta maaf. Tgh lepas stres ni. I cant wait for exams to be overr,
Im tired of studying already.
Things at home also soo...
tense and stuff.
I'll blog about it karang after exams.
Imma gonadoo Physics!

Have tuition in an hour. Physics, so i do add maths now lah.
I havent prepared EST or PA or any 3 science subs. :(

Faifai has azam baruue!
I want to aim Top 10 for the Final Examinations!!!!
I wanna beat the smarty pants!
Although Im preetty sure its gonna be tougher and stuff,
still. Let's see if i can reach my goal yesh? :D

*its gonna take alot of work*

dah balik dahh

2009-04-18T18:05:00.000-07:00

19 APRIL 2009
Situation critical

Im baack~!
From the KEM KEPIMPINAN PENGAWAS 2009
It was soo cool!
Very draining of energy but really fun

I made quite a few new friends. Now i have friends in the lower secondary form.
HAHAHA.
Jungle trekking was my FAV! ♥
Flying Fox ROCKS~

Tanya.
You were right.
Flying Fox is Awesome!! :D ♥
I felt some adrenaline rush right there and then.
Heeee

namun
sekarang tiba masanya
untuk belajar.
GAH.
how oh? so much to studeee
eeeeeeeeeeeeee

i cringe at the thought of it.
go go go!

Group 4.Pineapple candee. Starlight
star star light light
starlight starlight
we will reach for the stars

Jom kita Exam!!

2009-04-11T23:06:00.000-07:00

12.04.2009
sunday
and it's raining

GAH
our midterm exam form four ish here!
punyalah cepat masa berlalu.
i have so so so much left to studee.

when am i gonna fit the time?
to all you whoevers
all the besties yeah?

I will be going off blogger for a few weeks
battling me exams.

☻CRAMMING SESSION IS OFFICIALLY ON!!☻

☺♥☺♥☺

2009-04-09T22:52:00.000-07:00

10.04.2009

man.
i totally ♥ this layout but .. why dont have dates ohh.
tsk
bikin susah orang jak mau tulis2 lagi. heee
or maybe.
fesh is just LAZY

*nods* ☻that must be it.

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better remember to give our journal to tanya bisok. :)

When the blue sky remains blue

2009-04-09T02:17:00.000-07:00

9th April 2009
Today is Thursday

The time just seems to keep closing in to me.
I'm finding it hard to focus and start studying.
I know what I should be doing and yet I'm not doing it.

I know the phrase " Just do your best"
like the back of my hand.

Somehow I'm not convinced. :( Hmm? Movin' on

Remember that kid from the ward? His story is published in the Daily Express and TONS of people have been visiting him.
YB's , kindhearted people all came to visit him. Offering help.
Its a Miracle. He met his uncle.

Another miracle.
His dad is coming~
All thanks to his story being published in the Daily Express.
Putting the Sabah community on Alert.
To inform the family of his condition.
Alhamdulillah

By God's Grace. His wishes came true.
Visit this website for the published story.
http://www.dailyexpress.com.my/news.cfm?NewsID=64109

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Sanggup kah kau meredah lautan yang luas untuk mencari dirimu yang sebenar?

Tis been a long long time

2009-04-08T04:55:00.000-07:00

08.04.2009

SIMPLE!
Life is sooo overwhelming at present.
Exams is around the corner.
Its after my Pengawas CAMP.
Supposingly tu camp kan. Habis saturday 18/4 then exam will only start 24/4. but NOW. exam is on the 21st!!!

Crappies.
GTG. need to finish accountings.

jelly ball and happier posts

2009-03-09T23:41:00.000-07:00

BOO.
Aiya. My last post felt so EMO and SAD and .... CRUSH-ISH.
EEEEEEE.
faifai become a semi-emoo.
time to make it HAPPIER.

UB1 Is OVER baby! Wooooo!
I feel so happy!
♥♥♥♥♥
recently,my friend got a new haircut
reminds me of cleopatra.
heeeeee
i wanted a haircut tooo
but its not like ANYONE will notice?
i wear the tudung and all.
SOBS.
heeee.
buring

apa lagi ahh? stories belum update ahh.
im still waiting ffor new stories. :)
my life buring.
thats why my friends semua interesting.
wuahahhaa.
i enjoy this.
♥

next week!
sleepover!
wednesday. heeh.tanya has auditions.
bakat lok yuk with natalia. i wonder if we can come.
cheer them on. and enjoy ourselves watching other talented people strut their stuff.
what should we do during the sleepover?
something different other than playing the PC saja
watching films! for real
take goofy pictures. take lots of pictures!
share stories
then kita gi jalan2 besok?
go where ah?
mau tengok wayang ka? wayang apa?
hmmmm.

i have a jelly growing in a bottle.
its blue.
it starts of as a small speck.
and after a few hours. it poofs up
becomes way way Bigger/
overnight.

its a jelly ball!!

QUESTIONS

2009-03-05T22:29:00.000-08:00

What do people think of you when they first see you?
How do you act when someone you are not familliar with is around?
Do you brave yourself and Say Hi?
Or do you keep Quiet hoping whoever that person is will make the first move?

:)

What happens when you think something is something and it ends up to be nothing and you feel stoopid.
What do you do when something troubles you and you are not sure whether or not to tell your friends?
Will everyone have their rainbow? Their special moments.
Will we find ourselves in school or does it happen once we are Out There.
When is it our time to shine?

♥♥♥♥♥

How do you practice that little speech you have to motivate yourself in your head?
Whats gonna happen in the future?
Why does it seem sometime someone can be so mean and yet get all the good stuffs.
Why isnt ... ?

♦♦♦♦

So many questions.
The answer is out there somewhere.
Sometimes, you just gotta look deep in YOURSELF. :)
You drive your own boat. You make the decision to be who you are. Its all You.
With help from God,family and friends of course. :)

♥ or :(

2009-03-02T05:08:00.000-08:00

havent been updating this blogee. rawr. malas mau do all about Aussie for now,maybe later on.

GAAH. EXAM.
correction : Test!

Me ish scared!! eeeeee. im more scared of whether or not i'll be able to answer the Q's.
Cause its all a new format.
im afraid of being unable to answer the question and FAILING

dammit.ive never FAILED before.
i know there's always a First time. but heyyy. me no likeyy. :(

i will try my bestt! cuba sajalah. if i do badly,then i know my mistakes.
but i think i'll take it badly if i fail lo.
harap2 tidak lah.

NEXT!
Pengawas yang memakai tudung kini dikehendaki memakai baju kemeja yang tuck-in dengan tali leher sekali. bermula 2 minggu dari sekarang.

woooots! what the eck? nyeeeee. me in That?!
:0
weird! i'll stand out like a white flower amongst the blacks. boohoo
panas man! eeeeeeee. resign lah. lol. gloria told me to go be librarian.
hmmmm?
whyy? .heh heh heh. :P i wonderh.

bah. time to belajar sampai kita gila. as usual.

peash everybodee~

First day of the trip. :) Brunei Darussalam

2009-02-07T03:05:00.000-08:00

First day of the 10 day trip has begun.

I am going to Perth,WA for my eldest brother's graduation. ^^

So yeah. Im off to Sunny Perth. Not yet though. Im only going tommorow. Sunday. Midnight. Haiz. Yeah. Midnight baru sya pegi sana Perth. I am currently in Brunei. :) Visiting all the relatives and such, cause Finally my dad could travel. Then i guess all the relatives besar hati mau bring my dad go makan. Speaking of makan. OMG, i am so FULL. GAHHHH. Bloated plus plus.

I'll walk you thru my day which has yet to end. :P

I got up real early. Say 5.50am?

HAHAHA. Yeah, early huh? I got up early and showered. Then I went to double checked all the belongings. Making sure I didnt leave anything behind and such. We left for the airport around 8.45? Coz boarding-nya is around 9.50am. But get this. We were LATE. HAHAHAHA. Hwo did we get late? Welll, actually we were in the airport early bah. Its just that we stopped by to have breakfast and all with my grandmother and aunty(they had some stuff to kirim to orang brunei,a.k.a relatives) lol. My brother and I finished our lunch quite early bah. then our parents and my grandma and aunty started to talk about some political issues. kassim and i got bored so we head over to the bookshop and started browsing thru the shelves.

We were there for at least 10/15 minutes? Then my mom showed up and started to look thru the books herself. hahaha. she started buying some then suddenly my dad came over and was like " Theyre calling us on the intercom sudah!!" then i was like ... Whaaaat?! SERIOUSLY? *shocked expression/dumbfounded expression* :O then we all started to usher my mom to hurry up paying and all. then we all ran to the departure hall. man~ I felt sooooooooo ... EEEE. being late for a class still ok. baing late for a PLANE???! EEEE. Malu giler man.

continue later tah. :)

to be updated

2009-02-04T04:58:00.000-08:00

Perth

I wanna get myself necklaces.accesories.pencilbox(beeg ones).Taylor Swift CD. etc. :D

:)

2009-02-04T04:51:00.000-08:00

My last post was weird. heee.

Anyways, Im going off to the Land Down Under this Saturday,eh Sunday. A.K.A Perth,WA.
And its Summer babe.
EEEE. Hot hot hot.
Panas.
rawr.

I'll be going off to Brunei first. See all the realtives coz dads coming with us. He hasnt been able to travel in a While so .. yeah. :) then off to perth in the wee hours of the morning. im going to perth in my trusted tudung. heh.

im nervous lah. i mean. first timer and all. guess i should wear it with my head held high like tanya said. :) thanks tanya~ hehee. :D

anyways, im off to sunny perth. from the humid weather of kk to the blazing hot weather of Perth's. well, hell is sure a lot hotter than that eyh? :S

i'll be posting pictures and blog posts daily. I hope so!! so, heee. :) im going to miss all my friends,storys,school!!! and HOME. :( plus that pile of HW thats going to be on my back when im back from perth. GAH.

um. Graduation izzy. its on Valentines!!! AWWWWW. =3
So sweeet. Im going to observe how valentine is in WA. heeehee
love is in the air. wuuu wuuuuuu wuuuuu. :D :D

bah. gtg. HOMEWORK is looking at me. better finish it off.
packing!!! Ehk. me hate. but Shooping me like.

HAHA,

2009-01-31T17:43:00.001-08:00

form one nightmare... lol!

2009-01-24T18:21:00.000-08:00

boohoo. I was just chatting to Gloria about his old blog post I found when my internet suddenly sot and offline-d me. L anyway. OMG OMG OMG! My OLD blog. Major LOL-ness!

Hahaha. I cant believe it!! I found that OLD blog of mine! Heee. There was this post where I was writing about a nightmare I had, and you Tanya was in it. As were Shanon,Gregory and Ludfi ...?! haahaa. O-kay? My weird-o-meter is rising up fast. :P

Soooo hebat man my nightmare. My friends could kick ass somersault and flip bad guys. And hey, we were form one.. :P :P HAHAHA. Let’s see, I managed to kick some bad guy and he fainted. How lame is that?! HAHAHA. Did i really dream all that? Coz my dream was sooooo movie-orientated. Shall i post it up here? :P DO you want to read it too? I bet you will laugh man. I mean, it was just sooooo ridiculous!! My brothers were holding their stomach while they were reading that particular post... i was laughing so hard that no sound came out. 0_0, Nadine calls it Fairuz’s silent laugh. Hee.

Anyways ... Here’s a Sneak Preview.

“...people chasing me and gonna kill me...agents everywhere hiding becoming spies..”

HAHAHa. Can you see where this is heading? XD XD funny!

Oh my gosh! It just gets better!!! Check it.

“... security guard to get help... And he was talking nicely and suddenly he stopped and he took out a knife(but i didnt realize) and he sed "i can end it for you" and while talking he slashed a bit of my neck....i screamed and ran away...”

HAHAHA. Dang! Funny betul! “ I can end it for you” bluerk. FAIRUZ, u watched too many crime stories. :P he slashed my neck. LOL. Did he now? ..... slash neck is fatal my dear. Tsk tsk. Unless he merely scratched it...? oh my goodness. Can i believe me?! Can you believe me?! ..........

Oh and hey. There was this part where I said something about an evil pengawas. :O. Hahahhaa. And a department store where apparently the fighting took place. And my friends kicked ass, while I was too weak to help. Pathetic!!! :P , then suddenly fight scene over. Went over to this so called deserted plaza complex thing. Where somehow we encountered bad businessmen. Saying how i found their secret plan. :P :P :P!! I bet whoever reading this must be like. .... HaaaA? .. i will post the Whole story. But only if you want to. Heeeh. Chat me over at my cbox! XPXPXP XDXDXD.

I was supposed to post this last night, but internet was down.... HEE. :)

Pencuri.

2009-01-22T18:57:00.000-08:00

GOOD DAY TURN BAD.

CASE PENCURI LARIAN KECERGASAN,
Serial thief . :(

It all started when Tanya and I headed over to the gallery to check on our bags. Coz, Tanya wanted to see if her phone is okay. CLUE. PHONE. When she checked her bag kan. Her phone was GONE. Poof. Nada. Aku pun ter-stun this abit. I was like " Are you sure???!" Then she checked again and yeah. it was GONE. Some money from her wallet toooo. then she called her mom lah, so I went over to see if i can Somehow find it. Then something struck me. Shit. I brought my camera and it was in my bag. I scrambled on my bag to look for it, and i had this sinking feeling at the pit of my stomach ...and ohhh snap. no camera. scramble scramble, i might have missed it. still, no camera. WHAT THE HECK?! then i checked my wallet and usre enough, the big cash money was gone,RM25/-... Tanya lost RM 10.00. We were fuming mad. Then syed came along and I wanted to ask him if he lost his stuff.

then his airmuka changed. He was Angry plus plus. He lost something too, a new handphone that his dad gave him for his PMR results recently,a watch and his money. That darned thief struck three times! we were like CRAP MAN. Someone stole our stuff. That never happened before. I mean, we have been keeping our stuff there since form 1, nothing ever happened also. SIGH.

I KNOW its my own stoopeed fault that I lost my camera but hey~ More than 2 people lost their things. I mean, FINE. I shouldnt have put my camera in my bag the first place. That was stupid, yeahh... I GEDDIT. I mean, sure you will be like why you put there? .. sigh. that would probably be what I would say to a friend too. but since im also a victim.? ... i dont know. i admit i was Stupid. Please, dont rub it in. :( Its bad enough im literally scolding myself for it. okay?

That dumb-ass thief is an Idiot.
Man, my camera is gone. SObs. I was gonna take it to Australia to take pictures for my brother's graduatiion. and now. ... Can I??? NO. I have no camera. My birthday present, my beautiful camera.... My favourite coz the quality pictures it takes. :( Now i wouldnt be able to take pictures using My own camera. Damn you thief! Pencuri. No use cursing him, heck it could be a Her or They.

MOM AND DAD, im so Sorry. I never wanted any of these to happen. I guess i relied on past experiences too much. I should have realized people might be watching. Im sorry mum. YOu got me that for my birthday, and i was irresponsible. I admit. It was my own fault. Im sorry to have to break this news to you both. I never lost my handphone,camera ever before! and now that i had, i feel like such an idiot... now, would you trust me again? i dont deserve a new camera. Lets just wait until my birthday comes...? Ya Allah, inikah ujianMu kepadaku? To see if i learnt my lesson? A painful and Expensive one it is.

Lesson learnt. I will never leave my stuff like that again. pfft. no way. i feel so bad. i havent told my parents yet. :'(

some of my friends, Shafiq wanted to help. That was so sweet. :), he suspected someone but that someone went home. SO, yeah. whats gonna happen? then its chinese new year already. One whole week. If tomoro school. maybe ok lagi sikit. but, this. A week! Gosh.

Im sick of talking about this, but im gonna have to talk about this l8er to my parents. :( gotta go.

THIEF!

2009-01-22T18:49:00.000-08:00

I feel like an idiot. A STUPID IDIOT. Shit betul.

CRAP man. Those assholes should just go die lah, since balik2 dorang

mencuri. I mean, teda kerja lain ka hah? MENCURI JAK KERJA KAU. BUDU!

Jangan sampai aku jumpa kau ah, seriously. Kau tu mencuri jak, orang

punya barang hasil pemberian ibu bapa. kau ambil. PANDAI. Siapa ajar

kau mencuri? I mean, even if you are desperate, STEALING is NOT A

SOLUTION DUMB ASS. Dont you know you'll just get into trouble? Or do

you just feel so high and mighty that OOOOHHH. Aku dapat CURI banyak

barang lah hari nie. Syoknya. Banyak duit aku. Boleh beli barang. -.-" ,

yeah, belilah barang sana. Bukan jugak Halal tu kau beli. haram, pasal

kau Curi duit tu.

Pandai pula kau mencuri kan? Kerja lain ndak pandai? Mesti jugak

mencuri? ....... SHEESH. Get a life !!!!! RAWR!!!!!

im publishing another post. :(

estrella

2009-01-19T07:30:00.000-08:00

Estrella-Stay is playing on the radio now.
I love that song. ^^ Sound sooo cute-ish. hee.

GAH. Faifai is stressing! So much to do in such a short time!!! I KNOW im not supposed to touch my chocolate' laptop,but I just feel like blogging a tee bit. I wont be long ... just a short post will do. :)

I would love to 'story' it in detail but .. rawr. got work to do liao. :( Anyways, im posting the estrella song lyrics. ^^

Sound straight from the twilight
Has me up all night
I can't fall asleep 'cause I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow outside my window and it's you.

[Chorus]
All my sorrows flew away
Hush, keep quiet, hear me say
I don't ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there's no one but you and me
There's no reason to go astray
Please stay.

Making up a story
It's the way you're looking at me
If you think that this is funny, it's just you.
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com

Try and think about it,
If you're heart is closed don't lock it,
Keep your keys back in your pocket,
Think this through.

[Chorus]

Please stay with me
Just stay with me
and I will take you to Foreverland
Just stay

boom

2009-01-17T17:21:00.000-08:00

Rules & Regulations :

#1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.
#2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.
#3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

back!--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Nay gave did this survey thingy and I forgot to do it. So,yeah. me ish doing it now heyhey

MY 10 WEIRD THINGS/HABITS/LITTLE KNOWN FACTS :
1. i can stare out the window and start imagining me as a different person. How I will look in the future~ hahaha
2. i laugh REALLY LOUD when no one's around
3. i have a silent laugh. XD
4. i go line-dancin' sometimes with my ma and her PCA friends.
5. i find it hard to make a decision
6. i have APOLOGITIS!! :P
7. i imagine outfits i'd wear with me tudung. trying to be Stylish i suppose? HEEEEE!
8. i ADORE cute cartoon-ish fat animals. :D :D EG-Rhino on BOLT. :3
9. i want to find out how to the shmoky eye effect. :P can use for Formal's
10. i love putting my leg up when im watching tv. which is so NOT girl-ish.

LALALA

2009-01-17T06:33:00.000-08:00

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagged by... Tanya. :P

1. Do you have secrets?
# *nods head* heehee. GRINS! :D

2. Would you fall in love with a boy/girl younger than you?
#i dunnow ... maybe?

3. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
#we-ell. i'll wait .. if I really really (hearts) that Someone. ;)

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
#A billion dollars?! That's ba.ha.ya! If I were to think about myself, HEHE. SHOP@EDUCATION. but,help my parents outlah so that they can relax more. :)

5. What will you be doing tomorrow?
#Tomorrow? Looking forward for some R&R bebeh! WOO. maybe going out for Lunch. but, the plans are gg to be spoilt by ... u guesed it. Kerja rumah sekolah. boooooooooooo

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
#me likey both options.

7. What do you love doing?
#Love doing? Chilling outtie with my buddies(u know who you are. HAHA), my brothers!!!! , reading GOOD novels, watching korean drama's,scrapbooking,day-dreamin',photographing,watching movies... *sigh* MORE MORE MORE!

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
#EHM. Nothing? I mean, you cant really do anything ba kan? Unless youre THAT desperate. :S , i think the 'crush' will pass eventually. :)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
#Well, the lame jokes or brotherly-sisterly jokes I share with my two Brothers. :D :D We LAUGH our heads off everyday. :)

10. What makes you sad?
#Sad people/friends/family. Unable to cope with pressure, I feel sad if I cant accomplish my goals, failing, getting bad comments from people,sad when I dont do something i had promised to do earlier,letting people down,friends who backstab you. ... um, not doing what you are commanded to do. :( :(

11. If you’re attached but you feel as if your partner likes someone else too, what would you do?
#Well, I guess i would talk to him about this. I mean, maybe its just me being "perasan"-ish, or jealous? HAHAHA. :P

12. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
#InsyaAllah, I will. If our prophet could forgive the people who had intended to kill them, why can't I forgive someone who just did some mistake, right?

13. What exactly are you thinking about now?
#Well, your questions got me thinking. :) Life,mistakes, and ... crushes?? HAH, dont really care about it now though. hee. :P :P

14. What is the most important thing you need from your boyfriend/girlfriend?
#LOVE. He has to love me. :D :D nyahaha. Next come loyalty and suchh.

15. Do you believe that there’s “Love At First Sight”?
#Love at first sight? hahaha. NO. :) I believe you may feel 'attracted' but not LOVE terus. You need to get to know that person well first to LOVE them. ;)

I believe im supposed to tag people? *scratches head*
how to tag? put their name here ka? HEHEHEE.

in that case : people yang berada di dalam contact list saya sila buat ini survey. TRANSLATION : people on my contact list, do this surbey!! :D

....

2009-01-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

Here we go again.
The mumble shumbles of my family.
Behind the pretty curtains lie a secret,or perhaps a dilemma held by a girl of fifteen. A girl who has bravely gone through this with her ears forcefully blocked for her own happiness and content-- gee. I feel the need to blog about this. Well, where else would I turn to? You cant expect me to come talking to my ma about this problem. it just isnt right. family dilemma's. everybody has them. so I guess im not alone on that score.

its just the usual mumbles of ma. something about going for check-ups and nobody bothering to bring her,people not playing their part well enough,her stressful work. her worries about her health as she has high blood pressure. *sigh* she has been under alot of stress lately. yeah. so many things on her mind. and. none of which I can help with. Feeling so useless here. Guess all I can do is get good scores on my exams then huh? will that FIX things? maybe improve it a teeny bit. Plus. My brother yang wants to work first and yada yada. and mom is saying how she spent alot of money on their education and blah blah. Why must I elaborate further? I just dont feel up for blogging about this WHOLE dilemma or problem. it is Very complicated. so many things going on. Plus. i shouldnt blog about it too much or else ... emmh. you know? kenalah jaga maruah keluara skit.

CRAPPIES. Im only 15 for goodness sake! yet. i face so many things. it varies. hah. If only my friends knew the full story. Well, do I want them to know? *shrugs* What will they think? Although im sure they wont think anything badd but hey. boohoo.

faifai is the B A T T E R Y of her family.FACT. I seem to be the source of getting thru dilemma's for most of the family members. They talk to me. me?! yeah. *nods* i have such a complicated story. but im thankful for all my friends. without them. *shivers* where would I be without their support? Who can i talk to about things? I cant tell everything to my ma or my brothers. :P

well. the reason why out of the blue i started blogging glumly is mainly because it just happened a few minutes ago. and i was feeling upset as i had stopped studying to Relax and instead of relaxin'. this thingy POPS up. haha? i should have continued studying huh? Well. what's done is done' You cant erase your actions. Im done here. am sooo distraught but im hanging on.

i'll see you in my next,hopefully happier post.
lots of love~! byee.

2 nd D a y . . .

2009-01-06T02:31:00.000-08:00

Second day in school.

WAHH. sniff sniff. she cries. :(

why the sad face? it's just cause today was the day they were giving out our textbooks. and mind you. ALL OF THEM. every single thing was given out Today. why cant they give some tomoro? :( TSK. this is troublesome. they're Killing us! and its just DAy tWo!! Am i being dramatic? i dnt care.

fact is Every single book we payed for was given out today~ all the textbooks for 12,no make that 14 subjects, were given. 14 may sound little But. Im not quite finished. Dont forget, for science subjects. we were given not one book. but TWO. one is the Textbook and the other is the Practical book. *groans* oh, and what about our literature books for the language subjects? Bm & english? In total [so far!] we have ... 21 books. to be carried by Hand.

i feel tired all over again just thinking about it. and hey ... im not done yet! when earlier i said we were given ALL. i mean All. and hey? they were giving us these books tooo :

[a] LOG BOOKS - around 6/7 of them

[b] EXERCISE BOOKS - around 11?

[c] FOOLSCAP PAPER - 3

[d] RING-FILE - 2

[e] GRAPH BOOK - 2

HRMMPH. Imagine carrying all that by HAND. My bag was so full with textbooks that my friends said the size of my bag was 4 times my Head!!!! :) hahaha. kinda funny when you think about it...~~ :P

poor us. carrying all these Books. here's how a student looks like whilst carrying these books of ours. : The bag can be seen Packed with textbooks-some books are carried by hand in a plastic bag(a big one mind you) - more books carried by the free hand. we're practically using all of our limbs to carry them!!! BERATNYA. @-@ ohmigoosh. it was crayzeee.

and Get this! 4S2's teacher was sooo nice. She let them take some today and the rest tomorrow instead. HAH. bukan macam kami. semua pun hari ni dia bagi. BOOOOOO~! PLUS, we already have Assigments today.

EST/BIOLOGY/ENGLISH - i think these are some of our assignments. :P

EST is English in Science and Technology. Everyone thought it'd be easy. but boy were we wrong~~ :P it is harder than it looks. its something to do with Essays. a more complicated one than that of Form 3's standard. we have to use" s c i e n t i f i c & t e c h n i c a l " terms. like those really long words. heehee. kinda cool . Teacher said that if we are good in BIOLOGY we can be good in EST tooo. :D ? i hope sooo.

SIGH. What a day. I'm KO. hahaha. I must try and face the days in a more happier manner~! i can try~? eeee. boosh. tadi time English,we were asked to read this poetry for tommorow's lesson. WOW. the words are so deep. yerh. bot like the poem we're used too. :O ,boohoo. Guess i'll just have to adapt to a more grown-up version of Poetry and understand its meanings too.

Essays. FUUUHH. The essays aren't like Form 3's man~ Minimum words are like 350! ... oh yesh. 350 words. 0_0". heehee. im sure i can do it, but I hope i can write all that when the exam comes. My hand will be like so kebas this. penat menulis. That's a lot to write man~ wooooo. *wipes sweat off forehead*

sigh. what's gonna happen on Day 3? :(

im so tired-sad-scared-confused-mingledinmythoughts and all that goes along with it.

boohoo. see you next time then.

2009-01-05T00:46:00.000-08:00

Got any tips at all for surviving Form 4 anyone?!
RAWR.

faifai wants to vent out

ADUI.
FORM 4 .. can you believe it? I still think im in Form 3 actually. Form 4 makes me feel Old. padahal im still 15 hey. Sigh. First day in school was Fun, kerana teda belajar. Cuba start belajar. I think i will be like ... so Drained out by the time lessons are over.

Was looking at the schedule just now and i felt like Screaming! Why? Well, its just because...we have to stay back EVERYDAY. *nods* oh yesh we doo. teruk kan? so, im practically gonna be at school the Whole day. Perfect huh? *shakes head*. BOO. Schedule dia punyalah tight. I'll be unavailable the whole day! Tuition malam! but hecks. When will I have my tuition if EVERYDAY stay back ni? takkan saturday and sunday. I want those days to be free so I can RELAX or something. catch up with work and all. RAWR.

*groans*
i dont think i have time for my Fun-nesses or any other activity. I'll be a total bookworm. Soon, you'll be seeing me with my panda eyes. PLUS. All the science subs have essay question. just great. *rolls eyes* HELP HELP. :(

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S C H O O L -- F I R S T D A Y

2009-01-05T00:20:00.000-08:00

School. First Day. WHOA. :0

i know. i know. im NOT supposed to be blogging. :( heee. i couldnt help it ahh. (bad sign~~) But its gonna be real simple,plus im Actually gonna study. As in look through some books and such. XP , mum's orders. Plus I think it'd help me in class and all. :P So that when the teacher is teachin' me, I wont be staring at her like she's speaking some foreign language or something. hahaha. :D Well. Today was ... Fun. Thanks to my friends. We got together and they started singing, and we were like cracking up jokes and stuff? but its more towards .. SInging and the air guitar move. HAHAHA. yeah. Theyre COOL. :D :D

new classmates. so far they're okay, but it seems like they have Groups? And when there was a free period. Everyone obviously went to each other's group. ... Well. I wouldnt want to be too judgemental, So I guess i'll wait longer than to make assumptions based on the first day. Overall. Im gonna break the ice. :) bisok pagi lah. heehe.. bah. im done lah. karang ndak ta belajar payah juga. hahahah~~!

any tips to surviving Form 4 anyone?

Love
FAIRUZ

bloggy

2009-01-04T00:50:00.000-08:00

HAIYA.

Punyalah tegang dalam kereta tadi. :(
Benda kecil pun can cause an explosion ... someone wanted to go to Kinarut for lunch, coz Kononnya the food arah sana sedap. Then another grumbles saying its too far. The others argue that why dont we enjoy the ride. Then, another just gets fed-up and says lets eat where he wanna eat. Then HUHA this bah.

I so wasnt enjoying my lunch!! After lunch they drove back home to pick something upp. I didnt want to come coz i dont enjoy listning to ppl bickering all the time. im trying to enjoy my last day of HOLIDAY~! GRRR. So I stayed behind. no regrets there! :P

malas kan blog ni now. will blog in a week. I GUESS.

Registration

2009-01-03T07:27:00.000-08:00

registration day.

went to register myself for Form 4 todayy. i have been planted into 4S1 with all the smarty-pants. :P , does that make me one too? *sigh* GEE. School's starting already?? Darnit! Look at all the subjects we are supposed to take! 12 subjects and mark my words they are alot tougher than Form 3 syllabus. fuhh. :O .. anyways, a new year for school = new classmates.

usually I look forward to another year with all my classmates. HOWEVER, this year will seem different. Our class mix ni with the smarty-pants of 3C1. sorry to say, but they are so arrogant! like sombong this. and they are so Prim & Proper!! like.. VERY. :( im sure not all of them are like that but still... the ex AM1's are noisy-chatterboxy-jokes around-lively bunch BUT we are also Smart. Were noisy but smart. damn. we ROCK. hmmm. the Chinese class are the prim&proper people,study in an eerie silence,talk in chinese most of the time-abit snobbish. I hope not all of them are like that though. :(

Here's what Im expecting. A new class. Definitely going to sit with my ex AM1 buddies. I will try and make friends with my new classmates, which im sure that they are gonna race to sit in front. Our antics might clash in terms of ways we study. Might be able to learn a thing or two from them?

Oh and hey. Here's another thing. Muslim students in S1, there are only 3 of us. Me,Aleeya and Kamal. :( THREE!! geee. that's sad. Do you think the new classmates will pandang rendah at me? HAH. I'll show them! we, malay students ARE at par with them smartypants. dont pandang rendah at me lohh. Pantang betul for me. I'll show youu!! hehehe.

i wont be able to blog much once school starts and all. so, probably i'll blog like once a week. dont worry, will post daily notes on what happened and compile them. ^ ^

o u r o u t i n g :D

2009-01-02T07:03:00.000-08:00

Had a wonderful time with my BFF's today!! We went outt. it's like a girls day out treat kinda thing. :) Who else were going but US? Tanya,Gloria,Nay and yours truly. the arrangement was we were supposed to go around 11 plus~ but my dearest best friend Tanya overslept. While her friends were like prepping themselves for the trip.. HAHAHA. Tanya, jangan marah ya! Nanti cepat tua how? ^^ Anyways, we were like waiting. Then, we called her and she was like .. Oh My gosh. im so sorry you guys, I overslept! [heehee~!] so comel. oh well, while tanya was otw, me sempat ask nay to edit my blog. Cantik kan? HAHAHA. Ndak tau malu ni bah! XP

But, I wished I asked nay earlier. Then can choose lawa punya lagi. :) , anyhow. gloria managed to solve a jigsaw puzzle. :0 , tanya came around 1. Heee. we were like running down the stairs and out the door. hahaha. She and I were wearing guitar shirts! coolness. :D Auntie drove us to city mall, tanya's sis was there too... Terkena pula they were also going shopping, so yeah. Aunty gave us some advice, like dont go wandering at lonely places and such. :) From waiting, OUR(nay-fai-glo) punya perut was grumbling. So we went to Mc.D, makan burger. Tanya was eating chicken. hhee. After lunch we headed out looking at stores.

Lets see if i can remember the stores we went to : Mango-Tunes-Axeez-Mini toons- Something Different-Living cabin-Cool city-JOY-little stalls-

BTW. at the end, we got ourselves these friendship bracelet. it was so PRETTY. we didnt like get all Alike. but, individually chose something that suits us. so cool kan? ^^ the highlight of the day. Nay got something b/w .. I got something crystal-y .. gloria got a gorgeous turqoise one .. tanya got this clear crystal with charms on it. WHEE. We heart it! nanti i post pics.!!! lawa lah.

this is basically our outing. more fun lah. but i gotta rest my eyes you know?
till then.

Love yer all ! :)

LAST ENTRY FOR NOW ^^

2009-01-01T09:48:00.000-08:00

HELLO.
I rested awhile before blogging again.
What am I doing now?

Reading the January Issue of SEVENTEEN magazine. heehee. You gotta love that mag! It has everythin'. Make-up,school,boy problems thingy magigs,college,dresses,clothers,bag,shoes! EEEE. YAY. its cool. The last few magz. were divinely cool. tey showed diff type of shoes and bags that are IN. like I care. but hey, the designs are quite PRETTY. i am suddenly into BAGS & SHOES. im growing up. wait. I like CLOTHES toooo.. :D :D :D

Hmm. Random. I keep seeing people doing this smoky eye stuff & the eyeliner thingy. LAWALAH. How to do? i want. heeeh. pretty bah. :) teach me anyone? HAHAHA. Anyways, im starting to wear the tudung more, so Im styling meself upp. :) YAYH. Im building my own style. which will be like upgrading itself. YEAH. cant wait.

right. GTG. i need my beauty sleep. or what'sleft of it!! XP

XOXO

Special Thanks.

2009-01-01T09:20:00.001-08:00

Im going to have to do quite a few posts here. :) no worries mate!

Well, you read my last post. I want to thank quite alot of people for my success. without you, I couldnt have gone this far. :)

Firstly. Mom & Dad.
Gee. You have done so much for me. And all Im able to do is to make you proud of me. :) With this success, I share it with you. Without you both, I would not be what I am today. DAD,AYAH,BABA ;) - thank you for driving me to and fro from tuition. especially the last moments, the last months before PMR. When you sometimes stay up with me, during my late nights, I was glad of the company daddy. You may not know, but the little things you do means alot.

MOM. my pillar of support. always there for me,my mom. without her. I dunno. What would I be? Since I was little, I've always been copy-cat-ing my mom. HAHAHA. ANyways, mom. thank you for always being there for me. time and time again. When I was down, you cheered me up. Kept me going. Gave me your words of wisdom. When I got a C for a subject, you assured me that, this matters not. what matters is the final product. although, i should improve my grades. :P , i cant seem to list down all the things you did for me. so, to sum it all up. THANK YOU

Next, MY BROTHERS.

You guys. are the best. I cannot ask for better brothers than you both. You should know that, our relationship as it is. Comforts me. Coz, I can talk to you both about things. Things that i share with my best friends. Although I might not tell you All. :P , Thank you for always being there for me. Chatting with me thru the good 'ole MSN. :), when times are hard, when I had to face things alone. It was hard. but knowing that you will be there for me. No matter what, kept me going. You knew part of the reason I cried when I got my result. Why I was Extra Happy. You know why. :) Thanks abang. I love you both very much. :D

MY FRIENDS. Without you, I'd be so lonely.
Specifically : Gloria-Tanya-Nadine-Ling-Naz-

Gloria,Tanya & Nadine! me best buddies. If you are reading this. Ngam lah tu. Time to give you my thanks. :) yo! these people are the best! its like, were missing puzzle pieces joined together. HAHAHAA. What a comparison!

GLORIA - heeh. my pudner' in crime. :P , girl you're awesome, tho you dont know it. she helps me with my maths,accounting,kh and alot. Even some problems i had. so, THANKS GLORY-A.

TANYA- yeay tanya. :) This girl too helped me alot. Thanks for always helping me, even though I seem to have the ability to confuse people. :) even you. :P , nyehehe. What was it ahh we did? The heart ah? or was it some maths thingy? oh shucks. NVM. important thing is. Arigato gozaimas. In japanese that's Thank you. heeheee. ..right? for eberythings.

NADINE- i call her Nay. I give my friends nicknames. Tho i cant seem to find one for tanya and gloria. Takkan i call tanya... Tan or Nya. Imagining me calling after her.. " NYA. aik.. bah. TAN" nanti orang lain pula respon. susah juga kan? :P no offense. :( anyways, NAY. Yay! lol. This girl is the pudner for laughter. Yeah. She rocks. She seems to enjoy doing maths, since I've always seen her with her maths workbook. :) I know nay, tuition homework. :P

you three, thanks for the advice,support, and helps.
Naz. HAHAA. This kawan of mine, dari primary school lagi kenal. Glad we kept in touch. :) , he's cool. kami kuat Chatting online kan Naz? HAHAHA. Help each other with the projects... REMEMBER? :P, but all in all, thanks for all.

im done for now. gonna blog one last time then sleep. CRAP. Its 2AM!

Chocolate

2009-01-01T08:51:00.000-08:00

Okay, I should make this clear. I love making random titles for my blogs, although they might not Always be random. :)

i start blog now ya.

WOOOHOOO. DAMN. Fairuz you rock!! Straights A's babe! YEAH. :) 8A's BABY! nyeeeheeeheee. :D :D I cannot express how HAPPY I felt. WOW. I will walk you thru on that day. :P

30-12-2008 (The day results are OUT)

Well, I remembered I slept relatively early that night. Around 12? HAHA. That's not early. :P , Anyhow, I slept on the floor with my brother. heehee. I was so nervous about today that I was thinking about it till I slept. I woke up around 6AM, which I havent done at all in the hols. I sat up and BOOM. It dawned on to me that results are coming out today dammit! EEEEE. I decided to sleep again. I finally woke up at 7.30AM. What woke me up was my mom, kind of singing... "results keluar hari ni fairuz" over and over again. AHH. Crappies. :( bathed, and dressed up. results were SUPPOSINGLY at 10, but I was dressed at 8. now that i think about it... HAHHAA. *shakes head* :)

we left around 9? I was wearing a beetroot coloured half-jacket,t-shirt,jeans and maroon heels. :) i wanted to look nice. but when i got to school,Everyone was wearing school uniforms. me being me. i started panicking. then I called gloria up, ranting about how everyone pakai uniform, should i go back home and change...etc. HAHA. Gee, how do my friends put up with me? They seem to take me as I am and I love them for that. :D anyhow, once gloria came we went in. Cutting the story short. We waited 2 hours!! RAWR. :( that made me more nervous!!

it turns out that the results are out at 11. :( anyhow, my friends and I were sitting at the canteen table together waiting... our parents were like huddled up in one corner, looking nervous. :P then when the principal passed by,followed by the teachers with the test results. everyone,one by one started to stand up and follow them. XP it was sooo coooL. lol. :)

Fairuz's experience receiving her results :-

My stomach literally had butterflies in them.
I was shivering from nervous-ness
My heart was beating fast
i was scared. DUH. :)
when it was my turn, my hands like went cold. i actually took my results with shaking hands,

and there I saw it, the sweetest thing ever. one of the most precious moment of my life, a sight that I had only Dreamed of, wished for. and here it was. it was real. I did it. All A's. 8A's babe. Praise to be to the Lord. He made my dreams come true. I was so overwhelmed that I burst into tears and I was seriously shaking. Berkat all my hard work,sufferings ... i was so overjoyed. Subhanallah. :)
i never thought I'd actually cry when i get my results. but I did. That piece of paper means so much to me. It marks success after all the things I've been through. My brothers know. All in all, it makes this success a more meaningful one to me. I wanted this so much. and I got it.

can you imagine. me? a straight A student. ive only ever dreamed of this. and now it's a reality. i will Never forget the taste of success. after going thru hardship. that day is ... great! This clears off mists of uncertainty of my abilities. I know am able to see I have potential. Now, im off to Form 4. A year where students think they can go about leisurely. But to me, its one of the crucial years. Youre going to be learning all the basics here and in form 5. BOOM. Its your life youre drawing. :)

I GOT 8A's BABY! YAY YAY YAY!!! :D :D

MEOW

2009-01-01T08:33:00.000-08:00

PHEW. Hi bloggy~ I mished youu. heehee. Havent been bloggin in quite a few days due to lots of things happening. Some of which. HEEH. OMG~! Dadadada~ I have so much to blog about. Im so excited i dont know what to type! *laughs* Bah, one at a time thenn. :) When was the last time I blogged? Ohh, during Christmas! Today is then 2nd of January 09. WOW. long time eh? How am I gonna cram everything??? Yikes! I'll do it stage by stage bebeh. :D

26th DEC - nothing much. heck. i CANT REMEMBER. waaa. my memory~ :'(
27th DEC - rumoured to be the day PMR results are to be out! FALSE RUMOUR
Stupid rumour. bikin orang tension saja!! it turned out PMR results
is on the 30th. 30th bah. orang mau new year. time tu juga dia
keluar.

People! im sorry. I cant remember. NOOOOOO. Danngit. I should have blogged earlier. Oh why? WHY?? :) well, i wont know the Exact date. but i will tell you what i have been up to. ^^

Next post Hon~

people im so sorry!! i totally am a lame b

we were cleanin upp

2008-12-25T08:20:00.001-08:00

Helllooo

Today ish christmas is it not? Well, since its a public holiday,my momg ot the day off. We spent the day kemas-ing all the stuff. Apparently,my mom told me that once I enter Form 4, Im gonna need more space to study. So, we are going to rearrange the study room outside. Before doing that however, kami kenalah kemas-kemas all the stuff. My mom's stuff. She say Im taking her side. So, Im like... erm. Okieyy. Cool. I get my own Corner. Study corner,which i am so totally going to PERSONALIZE!! Yeay! Basically what we did today was clean up Her stuff. Her files,her medical books .. etc. It was sooo duusttyy. OMG. The study room was in a MESS during that period of time. Seriously. HAHAHA. I had my share of things to do tooo. I was to clean up My Shelf. Which I did, and managed to arrange my stuff according to 3 groups. Pencilcases/Notebooks/Movies. I have loads of movies now.. yeay. When my friends come over, we can watch movies on the laptop. Woooo~! :D Anyways, aside from that, I was also helping my mom clean up Her stuff. Alongside with it, I managed to salvaged some very coool items.

Which to my dismay, was not used! And it was dis years calendar! *sigh* it was a retro calendar! How cool is that?? RETRO calendar wohh. U dont see that very often now do you? Gila beb! Punya lawa tu benda! AHHH. Why MOMMY u didnt give it to MEEEE. *sobs* but no worrys, Im gonna cut out the pictures and make a collage. Nay if ure reading this! Help me!! :D :D Okay okay? ^^

Its gonna be sooo coool.

Woooo~! Bah. Ngantuk suda sya. Malash lah mau sambung. Till next time.!

Sayonara!

Coz u had a bad day ...

2008-12-25T07:57:00.000-08:00

RAWR.
What a day.

It's been a day of ... drama. YES. Tis been a day of drama. So many things happened. BTW, today is Christmas. So,here's wishing all me friends a MERRY CHRISTMAS~! I would love to have blog about what happened later in the day today. BUT, I guess I should not :( Just know that today The USuaL happened again.

I am just so sick of this! Why can't my family be like other families? So happy. Enjoy each other. I wouldnt say perfect,No. Every family has their problems. But, I just hate the fact that what happened today is starting to become, something Common. Its not good!! I HATE! i repeat.. I HATE I HATE I HATE!!!!! I fmy friends were reading this, those who knows. Guess lah? You know? I am just so Sick Of ALL THIS. Why can't he learn from all this? and do things right? Why is She being so overly sensitive? I should not blog about it more, in case this falls into the wrong hands... HA!

I am not the type who cries often. But today, I guess I couldnt stand it anymore. :'( Sat in my bathtub, i sobb and think about all this. When is it going to end(looks like it wont),how I wish things were different. Alas, wishes can only stay wishes. I just PRAY that my results would make my day. Coz, I Need that bit of good news.

Cheerios from the sky of lillies...

Dentist~

2008-12-21T19:39:00.000-08:00

I dnt like dentist. But i think i'm gonna have to start liking them to fix my teeth. HAHAHAHA~! XP

I'm going today. *runs panickly in a circle* ... scarry. the last appt wasnt so bad but NOW im SCARED coz i dont know what's he gonna do!! Heck,I even dreamed about it last night.!! talk about paranoid~ :(

Will blog l8er.. :) ... wish me lots of luck. *sniff*

Gingerbread man. :D

2008-12-21T00:41:00.001-08:00

I just went to Consfood, followed my mom to buy some stuff that we needed. And since its CHristmas. They were sellin' all type of cakes. I got excited and bought myself one fruitcake. HEEHEE. So My bought some stuff and i read this poster that they had stuck on the counter. For purchase over RM50-00, yu can get a free gingerbread man. Then, me being me. OOOH. GINGERBREAD MAN? Ive never tasted one. So, we were supposed to get only 2 but they gave us 4. How cool is that? ^^ When I had my first bite, I dint know what I was expecting~ Something sugary-gingery-crunchy? But it was soffT? Is it supposed to be soft? And hey. Its not even in the shape of the gingerbreadman. its in the shape of a CHRISTMASS TREE & those SNOW ANGELS...

HAHAHAHAHAHA. :P

Merry Christmas to youuu~ in a few more days.. :P

Cheers!!

Morning errand

2008-12-20T21:49:00.000-08:00

WOO. Just finished the morning errands of today. Going again this afternoon. I'll walk you thru the morning errands. :)

We-ell, as from my previous post, I slept quite late. Which equals to me being tired & sleepy. and so, my dear mommy woke me up early this morning to ask me whether I want to follow her to the Gaya Street(its this kinda-of bazaar every Sunday), and then afterwards to the market. I was like groggy bah around that time. Sleepy~ My first reaction was : "Heh? what?
Since we're just going to the market and all, I didnt really bother to dress up(meaning wearing nice clothes and such), just wore t-shirt&jeans. :) Well, before heading off to Gaya street,had breakfast. :D THEN, we left. Gaya street was sooo nice.

You could like see all the locals selling their produce and other stuffz. :) Handicrafts,Food,Drinks,Animals,Plants,Shirts,Fishes * more. Our first stop there was at this stall to see a man:Michael. He sells flowers and my parents went to buy some. To cut the story short, we went around looking at stalls, basically the plants stall. I managed to look at the animals they have for sale~! The cats are soooo cute. But I bet if Gloria is reading this, she'll be like. "Where got cute ohh,so ugly~" HAHAHAHA.. :P

Didnt really stay that long at the gaya street. We went to the FISH MARKET after that. For those of you living in the beautiful KK land. You should know that the fish market has changed place. Yes. They are no more at the place where they used to be. You know when you go down to the pasar sana, ada tempat jual rempah kan? Beside that got parking lot kn? Ahh. Sanalah dorang letak tu fishmarket. EEE. And the jalan going to the fish market is also closed! Can u imagine?? They're going to replace the current fish market padahal according to a lady sellin' some veggies there~ all that was needed for the building is to change the roof. but noo, coz of $$$ they are going to build a whole new one. Dont u think that this is unfair to the people selling stuff in front of the fish market? Siapa mau datang jauh2 beli barang dorang? :( The poor people... kesian btul. Anyways, we went home after that. :)

at 2.am in the morning

2008-12-20T10:33:00.001-08:00

continuation from my title. Yeah. 2AM in the morning and I am still awake. I dont usually stay up this late. Paling2 pun I stay up coz I had slept earlier in the day. :)

The reason for me sleeping this late is... my brother. HUH? YEah. He went out to fetch his friend from the airport and all. So,my eldest brother and I was waiting for him to come back. I was comfortably watching tv, which to.. I fell asleep on the couch. Woke up around 1.45am. Been awake ever since. Since then, I was like walking to and back from my brother's room. Seeing whether my 2nd brother has returned already or not. It was quite late. So, I decided to give him some more time. Well, was watching some Oprah show. But, I've already seen that show before. So I grew bored. I then switched the channel to some radio station,Lite FM. Some nice music before I sleep would be nice. :) After that, I went to bed & borrowed my mom's laptop so that I could go online and talk to my brother. the other one. :) So I chatted with him, and guess what? The other brother is home. like. FINALLY. hahaha. Dont get me wrong. Its not like im so berpegang sangat dgn abang~ I was just worried. :P

Anyways,felt like suddenly blogging, So yeah. I on-ned the laptop. :) NOW, im gonna sleep.

Salams from the girl with the squished pepijatpillow.

Cheers!! :D

Getting serious once again

2008-12-20T06:19:00.000-08:00

As you can see from my previous posts which I had transferred from my Friendster blog, there is one titled : Am I ready? ..

GOSH.
It is almost the end of the year~ I am about to make one of the most important decision in my teen life. Wooo~ This sounds serious but hey, that time is bound to come~ You may think its nothing much. But, Im self concious? I Always am afraid of what other people might think but my heart screams SO WHAT! ... :) Which leads us to the saying : Follow your heart. :)

You must be wondering what the heck is this girl babbling about? We-ell~ Wearing the tudung. :) HAHA. I bet you were expecting something more bizarre and all. lol. sorry to dissapoint. :P The tudung is the headscarf/hijab/tudung... I have a very strong feeling of wearing it. Starting next year. Its like a Fresh New start! :) Heck, my whole wardrobe will change! Major coolness. 8) Anyways, what is thats so hard? My friends might wonder..

Well. You know Im going to Australia next year and all, for my brother's graduation. The Eldest. We'll be going to Perth,WA around February. So you see, i'm about to make the decision on wearing the tudung full time next year. Do I have Enough courage to wear it outside this place that I am comfortable at? Meaning,my homeland and all? Wearing it to Australia! A land of the orang putehs (no offense!!! im sorry!) .... coz like in Malaysia, you see people wearing the headscarf quite frequently. And frankly, everywhere. But, in Aussie, i mean there Are muslims wearing it and all. But...jarang nampak. So, How? What do I do? Do i stand by my faith and wear it regardless of what people may think & instead be PROUDof my tudung?.

I am like worried, coz Im the type if I start something. I dont want to do it halfway!! I want to go full force. No half-half stuff. Geddit? The issue is firstly, Australia. An unfamilliar place. You get what I mean by people wearing the muslim headscarf is not as common as it is in Malaysia. Secondly, February in Perth,WA is SUMMER people!!!! its gonna be HOT. Then I remind myself, Hell is sure lot hotter,right? Why is it then, even when I know all this? I am still scared to commit myself ? and why do I even care what other people think?? Does this make me a normal person then? Having these fears and such.

To my friends, who might have stumbled upon this entry of mine. What should I do? I know what I want to do but why am I still scared?! Do I have the courage to wear it to Aussie? In Summer? Boy oh boy won't this be an ultimate test for me? :S Help! I just need some encouragement. :)

Im thinking, If I start wearing the tudungs fulltime. Hey, there will be a new side of my dressing. I might actually be dressing up a tee bit. Its kinda fun. Will blog about it on the next post. Till then, :D

Cheers~!

lama ndak update

2008-12-20T03:55:00.000-08:00

DATE : 19th Dec 2008

*sigh*

how can I start my blog with a sigh??! … just did. nyiaahaha. (note the boredom & lack of ideas.hehe)

Anyways,what have I been doing since I last posted my entry. Nothing much. Went out yesterday tho~ HAHA. My brother, Kassim brought me to town(KK lah). So, we went via the coastal road. The one facing the road & where you can see the jetty~ But oh boyy. The traffic JAM !! It.was.so.long!!

I guess its just because Christmas is literally around the corner & orang baru dapat gaji so going out shopping and stuff. Oooh. School is also starting soon, so I guess parents are bringing their kids to buy uniforms,shoes & stuff. Punyalah kami menyesal ikut Coastal Highway. Should have ikut the bukit way. And we were using the jeep, a.k.a Invader. Punya panas!!! Sudalah tu a/c not working~ Orang di sebelah SMOKING. Budu betul. heheh.

I mean, sudalah aku terpaksa buka the window (mind my improper use of the english language,which I intentionally mix around with the malay language to make it more original & exciting.. lol) to let air in, not to mention the car in front of us punya smoke also. this guy again Smoking! Like, what the heck man~ You’re destroying your lungs~ Hellooo. Not to mention, indirectly Ours(the people yang terhidu the smoke.. secondary thingy majjigs)
Anyhow

Made it to Wisma. We then went wit my mom for lunch, which is a great achievement coz she Rarely eats Lunch! her work is sooo demanding. The patients dont want to see anyone else but her. So yeah. Then my headed back to the clinic whilst my brother and I went “window shopping”. We went to Tongs, coz He wanted to buy some shirts & pants .. etc. And get this, I lost him there. HAAH. One minute I saw him. the next he was gone. *sigh*

Then, I bought some movies to watch. & that’s it. How utterly wonderful. lolness. What have you guys been up to? again, LOL. No one liker ead me bloggy. Sadd. No comments also. booring.. hehe.

Hello Hello :)

2008-12-20T03:46:00.000-08:00

DATE : 11th Dec 2008

Garh.

Im making my life so useless. I know stuff that I can do at home but noooo,I dont do it. Kerana MALAS. This disease is a bummer. Hard to get rid of,always there. *sigh* Better start making myself more useful.
So many things to think about,for next year. Forever. Wahh. Now that I have so much time im actually thinking. WAIT. Its not that I dont think. haaha. I dooo~ I mean think seriously about stuff. *laughs*

Im getting too serious. Guess I should stop. See yeu on the next post~

Am I ready?

2008-12-20T03:44:00.000-08:00

Date : 11th Dec 2008

Wahahah. Serious question nie. Jangan main-main. HAHAHA. No lah, its no biggy. Im just thinking seriously about going full-time. You get what I mean? Im thinking of wearing the tudungs full time. Wahh. Some people might just think that … alah. Pakai sajaalah.. But hrmmm. I went to wear it when i wear it. When I feel the feeling? Chewah. Ber-feeling lagi bah this mau pakai tudung. But seriously, Im starting to have fun choosing me tudung what to wear. Is that a sign or something? Hmmmm?

Then I say to myself. Maybe, I’ll start next year. A whole fresh new start. Wouldnt that be great? But then again. I want to. But what would people say? … actually fairuz *knocks head* nothing lah. I mean.. diam saja what? But hey, can I stand the heat when I go to Aussie for my brothers graduation. Its gonna be summer! It is going to be HOT.. :S

Wahh. My mom lets me do it in my own time yeh know? But still. That time will COME! Hmm. And hey,its in Australia~I mean, in my own country is no biggy,after all everybody wears them. I mean. You geddit la ahhh.. But kalau di Australia~ ada tu memang ada. But will they stare? Will they look weirdly? Can i deal with that? AHHHHH. Pressure pressure. How will this turnn out?

I told my mum and she said. Hm. Orang yang tiinggal di gurun tu pakai tudung oso apa. Then when I think about it. Betul jugak. Dorang lagi panas kan? :S But, the stares? Will they stare at me? Or ignore me? HMMM. Im wondering! It’ll be cool tho. Its like,wearing this tudung is a mark of me being a mUslim. Right?

There is good reasons to wear the tudung~ But I guess. Entahlah. Im still wondering. Hope I can gather enough courage to come to a decision by end of this year. Its gonna be a beeg decision. We’ll see …

MOVIES!!

2008-12-20T03:41:00.000-08:00

Uploaded from my previous blog on friendster.

DATE : 11th DEC 2008

wowness. There is like sooo many good movies on nowadays. YAAYYY!! Recently I just went to watch the movie BOLT by Disney. It was Beyond Awesome!! Hehehe. SERIOUSLY. Omg! *screams* *sigh* I am totaly loving that darn fat litte haster called Rhino. He is sooooo funny!! :D My favourite character in that movie. oh yesh. *nods* You Have to watch BOLT! Oh hey, during the movie ryte? Got this part bah yang ermm. When the real bolt escaped ada kena ganti kan. So there is a replacement lah basically. Then when bolt was there n found out. He was shocked lah. So it was like a sad moment. Then this little boy tanya :” Mak. Kenapa ada dua anjing? Kenapa si bolt ndak kasi tau yang dia ada di sana tu” (in that cute tone little kiddies have .hehehe.) Then the mum replied ” bukan,ada dua anjing baitu…”

That is SO CUTE! Heehee. But anyways,aside from BOLT there’s the movie TWILIGHT which almost all my friends went to see. Word has it that the vampire is hot. Hahaha. Kalau ndak salah the vampire is Cedric Diggory from Harry Potter. Oooooo. Hmm. Then ada Quantom of Solace,Madagascar,Quarantine(scary!!) & loads more. Lazy to write. Well…guess im just going to have to go to the movies abit more often now eh?

Previous blogging session.

2008-12-20T03:19:00.000-08:00

HMM
Since I've started this blog on blogspot,I dont really have much posts here do I? We-ell, guess i'd have to transfer my previous blog here. So, Im just gonna post them all here Today! So, you wont really miss anything~ :)

Merely this blog of mine would be more of my thinking,thoughts,views and such. Nothing too personal I gather. *winks* Well, enjoy~

Cheers & toodaloes~

Woo~

2008-12-19T23:59:00.000-08:00

My first entry huh?

Status : undefined

Anyways, I was searching for blog templates on the web. Trying to find some nice edgy look for my blog but sadly I havent found it yet. I know we can like customize our blog and all but I am just clueless as to how Im gonna do that! So, I'll just have to do with the blog templates other people are using & hopefully customize mine very soon.

My idea's for the blog design.

1. Thinking something happy like~ cute cupcakes,flowers and such.
2. Hmm. I think i'm more content with the oldschool idea. Something with sepia or b/w prints. Sceneries. Found quite a few Pictures to my liking, now I just have to find out how I'm going to use it on my blog....

Well. I'll blog again in the next post. Keep it nice and short is my motto. Nah~ Knowing me, I cant really seem to master the keep it short technique whilst blogging.

Cheers~!

2008-12-19T08:09:00.001-08:00

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